Ok….Over at The Sandbox Writing Challenge it seems after 16 weeks it’s time for a review……wasn’t expecting that!!!!! This week Ms. Allen wants us to take time to go back and look over the exercises we’ve done and answer these questions:
Did any of your answers surprise you? Why or why not? Ive gone back over my answers, and I guess I’d have to say in some ways I’m surprised, only because as hard as some of the questions were,and knowing by answering as honestly as I could, was going to be equally as hard, I never wavered from answering truthfully from my heart. It’s been a purging, therapeutic 4 months!!
Was there any one exercise that felt more emotionally “charged” than the others? If so you may want to take a few moments and write a bit more about it. But only write until the “energy” runs out. For me, Challenge #5 I Am Different was by far the most emotionally challenging, yet it was very therapeutic putting it ‘out there’. As a follow up, I actually tracked him down, sorta. I found his picture via his wife. I wasn’t sure how I was going to react when I saw his face after all these years. I was surprised, because there was no hate. I was able to see him for what he is now, an old man. Yes, he hurt me, but I’ve taken my power back, and he has no hold over me anymore.
As for my mother. I actually got a message from her last week, asking for my married name and address. I held off for 24 hours before replying. I’m curious, though I won’t hold my breath.
Are there exercises that feel incomplete? Go with your energy. Complete those exercises now. You’ll know they are finished when your energy is spent and the exercise feels complete. Challenge #6 What Is Holding You Back … I noted how I’ve allowed my lack of confindence in my abilities stop me from pursuing and trying things. Well, on a positive side note, I’ve started pushing past that by writing, me, who didn’t think I could put my own words to my photographs. Next up, getting it all together…I want, no, I’m going to print a book, of my photographs and my own words!!!!!!! No More Holding Back!