Feeling Small Doesn’t Define Me….

This weeks challenge over in the Sandbox Writing Challenge we’re asking ourselves the following…..


Well, the answer to that question came to mind the other day, prior to knowing what this weeks challenge was going to be. I was already ‘writing’ a blog post in my mind about it when this challenge arrived in my email this morning………what makes me feel small?! How Replaceable I am……………

Why do I think and feel that way..what brought it to mind?! I was thinking back to my bakery job. I LOVED my job..I was good at what I did. Very early on and very quickly I was given more and more responsibility. I worked my butt off for two years as a part time employee…I let it be known that I was interested in going full time whenever the opportunity presented itself……….when the time did pop up, they actually brought in another worker, from another store…..I was pissed. When I inquired as to why, all I got was a lot of run around……I tried to stay on, but when she started taking credit for work I did, I knew it was time to go….they didn’t blink an eye when I left………I WAS REPLACEABLE………this thought got me to thinking………………………………

 ……..about my father, and how he tossed me aside 10 years ago……what he really did was toss me aside long before that…when he remarried. I was 20, married and had a child when he married a woman with 2 young daughters….daughters he basically raised. His wife, whenever I would call, made it a point to inform me that he was ‘busy’ helping one of the girls with homework, or he was outside tossing a ball with the other one……….All the things he never did with me, he was doing with them……and if that wasn’t enough…if he said it once, he said it a thousand times, that they were his family now……when I married at 19, not only did he not give me away, he didn’t come. I heard through the grapevine he walked his step daughter down the isle……I WAS REPLACEABLE…..

But, I know that feeling this way isn’t on them, it’s on me..and I am the only one who can take and make that feeling disappear……so, yes, knowing how easily Replaceable I may be can and does make me feel small……but the fact that I’m aware of it helps empower me to counter that with how much I Am Worth!!! 
So..replace me….It’s Your Loss! I am not small and insignificant…I am Tremendously WorthWhile!!!! 

Photo Credits:

Big Chair: Couragecrusade.com

Know your worth quote: Anupturnedsoul

A Little Bit ‘Bout Me 😊

Monday..Monday……Share Your World with me 😄 Yep,,,it’s that time over at Cees Place!!! This week, she poses these questions….

What’s your most memorable (good or bad) airplane flight? February 2, 2014, I had an amazing experience on a flight home from a weekend visit with the kids. I was seated with a sweet woman, Fran. We chatted the entire flight,,,meaningful, heartfelt conversation. She was having issues with her children, and as I’m estranged from mine, she asked questions to get my perspective, and in turn, she shared hers. We opened each other’s eyes a bit…….I keep her and our meeting tucked away in a small corner of my heart…..I look for her every time I fly. 

How many bones, if any, have you broken? Happily, I can say none. 

If you had your own talk show, who would your first three guests be? (guest can be dead, alive, famous or someone you just know). Amelia Earhart , Anne Morrow Lindbergh and Stephen King.

Make a Currently List: What are you reading, watching, listening to, eating, needing, wanting, and missing right now? 

  • I’m reading Writing Down Your Soul by Janet Conner
  • I’m not watching any one thing at the moment. Tend to watch tv more in winter.
  • When I am walking through town, whatever pops up on my phone. If I have music on at home 9 times out of 10 it’s New Age…or 70’s.
  • Peaches from the farmers market
  • I’m needing to get to the grocery store…I’m wanting a banana split 😁
  • I’m missing my children and grandchildren….achingly missing them ❤️

Bonus question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up? I’m grateful for my daughter Stefanie’s shoulder when I needed to unload ❤️

And I’m looking forward to my son Brad and his family’s arrival Friday night..they’love be here for 10 days!!! ❤️

Crabby Oddballs

Wow…it’s the middle of Sunday already,,,And the last few days of June 😱 Dang if the time isn’t just flying by…….well, since it’s Sunday, it’s time for another installment of Cees Oddball Challenge…I wasn’t sure if I would be ‘playing’ along today…but I took these this morning and thought they’d fit the oddball theme…….

Beady Little Eyes Peering Out At Me 👀

Little SandCrab and His Trail In The Sand

My Friendship With The Sea 🌊

My beautiful friend Raili, over at Soul Gifts, is keeping The Circle Of Friends going…though, instead of a weekly prompt, it will be mid-monthly ……she’s given us some interesting prompts and ideas for this months challenge……I was having a hard time till I read something she wrote to Lady Calen:  The friendship context in this theme extends beyond friendships with people to include – well, everything. Our friendships with the earth, with the animals, with nature, with society, with infrastructures………when she put it that way…the most obvious answer came to me…..

My Friendship/Kinship with the sea..

My soul strolls are an important part of my life….whether it’s the beach or a trail…BUT…..The sea plays a major role in my everyday life…she touches me in all aspects of it…My spiritual health, my emotional/mental well-being as well as my physical self….

She’s ‘There’ for me…….

She is my friend……

I know she’ll listen without fail

She won’t interrupt me in order

To tell her tale…..

I can unload, the load I carry

Whether it’s happy or sad

Angry or stressed out

Or just a mixed bag…

Regardless the weather

She’s always there

With just the right ‘answers’

That handle me with care………


Holding a shell upon my heart, I say Thank You for listening….for hearing…and responding 🐚