Goodbye 2016

I went back to last New Years Eve blog post to remind myself what I had written…..

The hands of time

Tick tocking the moments away.

Soon, now,

The final chapter 

Of this book will be written,

The last period put in place.

And the book will be close

Reflection will follow.

There were stormy seas

That pounded and tried to break me.

 There were times of peaceful calm,

When all seemed right.

What I have found

On this journey,

Is that my life

Is/was somewhere in the middle.

The rough seas help make me stronger.

The calm revitalizes.

In the middle, I find a cohesiveness

That makes my life’s journey

Explicitly my own.

The book is closed now.

A new one ready to be written.
With pen in hand,

I will turn the page,

Let the journey continue.

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Much has happened since I penned those words. There was much happiness and a whole lotta sadness at the end……….

2016…time to bid you adieu

The beginning of the year brought

Heightened excitement…

New babies, not one but two.

Natalie💗

Maddox 💙

A hot summer

Filled with sunrises and Dragonflies

Led me to believe

We were in for a surprise.

Little did I know, 

As the tail end of the year began

My world would be turned upside down

I was left without my man.

❤

The circle of life

It touched me deeply

But my life goes on

A new journey awaits me

With his Spirit guiding me

I’m ready to move on

2017

I’m ready to take you on.

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A Very Merry ‘different’ Christmas 🎄

“Christmas is love in action. Every time we love, every time we give, it’s Christmas.” ❤💚❤💚 ~Dale Evans~

Wanted to take a moment and wish y’all a very Merry Christmas..Happy Hanukkah…Kwanza…Holiday….take your pick………..my Christmas started at 4:30 a.m. I was up before the rest to get breakfast and coffee going…the plan was to awaken the kids at 5 a.m. to open presents as their dad had to leave for work at 7……this was the first Christmas with any of my children in 9 years…….

After breakfast…I headed down to the park for a quiet Soul Stroll…….temp was in the low 50’s….I had the park to myself…….had a nice chat with him ❤💚☕ 

“And when we give each other Christmas gifts in His name, let us remember that He has given us the sun and the moon and the stars, and the earth with its forests and mountains and oceans–and all that lives and move upon them. He has given us all green things and everything that blossoms and bears fruit and all that we quarrel about and all that we have misused–and to save us from our foolishness, from all our sins, He came down to earth and gave us Himself.” ~Sigrid Undset~

Wishing family and friends, near and far, a very Merry and Blessed Christmas. Each and every one of you is a gift. We celebrate Christmas every moment of every day, knowing what a precious gift each day is. May yours be filled with the gift of love. 💚🎄🎁

(I posted this last year on my Facebook page…..little did I know that it would be my last Christmas with Jim and my cousin Larry.)

 

This afternoon…well it was time for toasting with mimosas…and later..we’re really changing it up…ordering Chinese takeout for dinner before FaceTiming with the rest of the troops……..this Christmas has been bittersweet…but as much as I miss him..the gift of his love remains deep in my heart…I draw strength and comfort from his love every moment of everyday……his love is the gift that keeps on giving…..I’m truly Blessed. ❤💚

Christmas Eve…North Carolina Style 🎄

Well, here I am..venturing into new territory. My first Christmas Eve without Jim….I’m in the midst of Christmas Eve Chaos with the kids…..a welcome, yet bittersweet distraction….

Jemma loves chocolate ALMOST as much as Nana 😄

LOL….Landon cracks me up 😄

Maddox’s smile stops my tears pretty quickly 😊

I’m incredibly Blessed……but the emptiness is real. I feel his presence, but I miss him so…….

This is ….My first Christmas without you

And though It’s hard to celebrate….

The gift of your love is one I cherish

And one I will hold dear for goodness sake…..

I hear your laughter in my mind

I close my eyes, I imagine your touch 

My love for you is forever 

The gift of your love…is enough ❤💚

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Love you husband ❤💚🎄

He Was My Home

It’s said you can’t go home again

How true that is for me

Cause home wasn’t a place 

Home wasn’t a building 

Home was You.

I resided in your heart

Your soul my blanket

When I close my eyes

I imagine my head 

Still pillowed on your chest

I can still feel you……

In my dreams I can always go home…..

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Remembering Him….and Living

9 weeks….63 days….1512 minutes 😔I miss you every moment of every day Husband ❤️

“Perhaps in losing you, it’s just possible to find you, to feel your Spirit with me, guiding me, wherever I may go.”

❤️

As Christmas approaches, I’ve made my way down to North Carolina, where I’ll be celebrating with my daughter and her family. I’ve finally met my newest grandson, Maddox

Nana and Maddox Woodrow

 

Landon and Jemma are excited to have me here. They, as are the rest of my children and grandchildren, the best medicine I could ask for. 

Nana and the Crew ❤️😄