Good afternoon Everyone ☀💛
“Do not hide the wrinkles of your heart. Don’t try and iron them out or smooth them over. They are your life. Your wrinkles of life are special and unique. In these lines live your joys, your heartaches, your pain and your laughter. You don’t need to get rid of them. Instead, let them breathe and grow, for it is in these wrinkles that the most beautiful parts of you can be found.” ~JB~
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I posted this on my FB 2 years ago…it never ceases to amaze me that things I posted long ago, still find ways to speak to me now. Back then, I was in the midst of healing from my past,,I was putting my broken pieces back together…..and I did. Sure the pieces don’t quite fit perfectly, but that’s to allow my light to shine ☀
And y’all know what Jimmy Buffet says, “wrinkles only go where the smiles have been.”
Jim made my heart not only smile…but sing!
I hope the sun shines down on you today and you find a small reason to smile 💛☀
My journey into Widowhood, has found me now, one of many contributing administrators to a FB widows healing group. My role is providing my take on my journey as I navigate, in as positive a way as I can, my life after Jim. I thought I’d share some of my posts here, one never knows who I can reach…….
Good Afternoon Folks! Busy start to the day as we had a ‘date’ at the local bookstore with Peppa Pig. If you have children/ grandchildren I’m sure you know who I’m talking about! As for me…I was ‘designated’ driver for Maddox 😊
Just call me Maddox’s Taxi
My Kristen and Jemma and the very famous Peppa Pig 😊🐷🐷
So as I was contemplating what I wanted to write today, I was watching my daughter and the other young parents with their children, and I was reminded of something I always used to say in regards to my own children….that I wanted them to grow their own wings and learn to fly……………………….I feel as though, at this time in my life, as I’m learning to adjust to my role as Jims widow, that while I thought I had grown my wings, those wings were grown with the help of others….I’ve come to realize My wings still have a lot more growing to do….for the first time in my life my growth is happening solo. As frightening as that was and is, I’m learning how to depend upon myself, because I have no other choice. The Linda I am today, is still a work in progress. I have Faith and I Believe my wings are gonna be Awesome!
Last night was a big party on White Street here! I choose to celebrate Jim on Friday…these wings of mine are slowly growing
“Pain is a pesky part of being human, I’ve learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can’t be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.” W~C. JoyBell C.~
Ok Folks……my offer was accepted. Inspections are being scheduled. Closing date has been set for 3 weeks!!!!! This is really happening……as fast as it’s happening, it all feels right. I know Jim has a huge hand in all this. It’s the way we always rolled together……………………..
When Jim was alive, my definition of Home was Jim. It didn’t matter where we were, so long as we were togethe. Hell, we started out sleeping on a floor in a friends house. When he died, a piece of me died with him. But I know he wants me to live my life, and in order for me to do that, I need my own space. Here is a little sneaky peak of my new home……….
Front view…….love my trees 💚🌳
View from sliders (this is taken from the listing..I was so freakin’ excited I forgot to take pics of inside..lol)
Rainy day view….💚 my tree
You’ll have to wait for the inside pics….of course I don’t own a thing. The cottage we rented on Chincoteague came furnished..so needless to say, I’m really starting over!!!!!
I’m bittersweetly excited….I miss him soooooooo soooooo very much. Yet I know he’s guiding me….I’m a very Blessed woman, and I’ll never lose sight of that. ❤🙏
“Trees are sanctuaries. Whoever knows how to speak to them, whoever knows how to listen to them, can learn the truth. They do not preach learning and precepts, they preach, undeterred by particulars, the ancient law of life.”~Hermann Hesse~
Can one fall in love with a tree…..I Just Did 💚🌳
This tree 💚 This amazing, beautiful tree is located on a piece of property that I went to look at yesterday…….as soon as we walked into the backyard I could almost hear a Heaven Chorus sing.. and then, wait for it, wait for it…………a huge Dragonfly paid us a visit as we were walking the property!!!!
“Indeed, I have long since come to know that nature feeds a woman’s soul. It rarely gives direct answers, but it ALWAYS nourishes, soothes and waters the SPIRIT, so that eventually growth occurs.
Today, marks 27 weeks, 189 days since I lost Jim. Today I celebrate the love of my amazing husband….and his gifts to me. I put an offer in on a home late yesterday, and my offer was accepted late last night. I now begin the process of inspections and all that goes with purchasing a home, something I haven’t done in a very very very long time. This is all possible because of My Jim……his love for me, and mine for him, transcends all time. I’m incredibly Blessed. ❤
My journey continues………