On This Day…15 years ago, I went to lunch and spent the day with a really nice guy. 15 years ago, my life was forever changed. 15 years ago, I (re)connected with my other half…..it took us years to find each other, but find each other we did. We made each other whole, again. Though I know and feel he is with me always, we are once again separated by time and space….
What helps me to go on is my belief that we will be reconnected and whole again…….
Today I’ll remember. Today I will cry. Today I will laugh. That’s what my memories do.
I Love You Husband ❤
Good Morning….this is my second morning waking up in my new home……I awoke, poured a mimosa and headed out to the yard….rolled a stump to the edge of the wild brush of my property,and sat beneath the ‘arms’ of my tree……
While waiting for the sun….I tried putting my writers cap back on…….
Sunrise paints the sky
A new day is beginning
My life continues
Just as each day dawns anew
My inner light will shine bright
This. Just. Happened! (Yesterday)
My journey brought me here. My Jim, guiding the way…..I’m incredibly Blessed to have had this beautiful Soul of a person, Brianna, placed into my path, and join me on this rollercoaster ride of emotions…..she ‘held my hand’ every step of the way…..she brought me to a space I didn’t even know I wanted or needed……Thank You my sweet friend. ❤
This is all bittersweet and emotional for me……..7 months ago I lost the love of my life…but I know he’s with me. So,,until It’s time for me to be back in Jim’s arms…I. Am. Home ❤🏡
“I heard the breeze whisper your name to the trees. And the flowers giggled smiling at the leaves. I and my loneliness keep talking about you.” ~avijeet~
When the grief and the pain start to overwhelm me, my Soul Strolls these days, take me to the trees………where in the past, I was comforted by the song of the sea, I now find refuge sitting amongst the ‘old ones’.
Sitting beneath this beautiful Oak Tree, I found some quietude…I found some much needed peace….and a little bit of my voice.
Here I sit.
Under this big Oak Tree.
I feel her strength ,
I ‘hear’ her wisdom
Whispered in the wind.
She’s telling me
“You Are Strong”
Her leaves, they dance.
And I dance too.
With each sway,
I feel lighter.
With each turn
I have found my new home.
Amongst the trees…..
Friday. My nemesis. Friday. The day he left. Today is 29 weeks, 203 days since Jim gained his wings. I’ve been working very hard at learning to celebrate my Friday’s and not dread them. I’d say I’m 70-30 there.
This morning I came across this ‘quote’….”SILENCE IS PURE. IT DRAWS PEOPLE TOGETHER BECAUSE ONLY THOSE WHO ARE COMFORTABLE WITH EACH OTHER, CAN SIT WITHOUT SPEAKING.”
This made me smile as I remember out first ‘date’. We were two married people who knew each other from working in the same store, acquaintances, nothing more. I left the store and didn’t see Jim for almost 5 months. When we unexpectedly bumped into each other, turns out both our lives had changed. We were both separated. He said let’s go out for a burger and a beer sometime. That wouldn’t happen for another 2 months. When it did, we bought sandwiches and Rolling Rock Beer and went and sat on his friends boat. The conversation flowed easily, as we talked about out lives, our families. It was a beautiful late May Day. The sun was sparkling off the lake. We found ourselves just sitting, quietly, staring at the water as the boat gently rocked. I remember thinking in my head…This is so nice. The silence is comfortable. At some point, I had leaned into him and we just continued to sit in that beautiful quietude.
2 people came together that day as friends looking for nothing more then conversation…we left that boat connected by something neither of us had ever experienced before.
We would come to enjoy many many more of those silent comfortable moments………………..I have no doubt y’all know what I’m talking about. Today, I hope you’ll join me in finding and stealing some special quiet time to sit with the memory of your beloved.
I Love You Husband ❤
The picture of us below was taken by a friend last Memorial Day. I remember it well. No conversation…just the water and dragonflies and Jims hand on my arm ❤