Well folks, after 307 days, I’m emerging from my Fog. It took some time, but I’m beginning to see things through different, clearer eyes. A few ah-ha moments, a whole lotta tears have helped me break-through some of my self-imposed barriers that I didn’t even really know were there……….this song popped up this morning and then these words just spilled out….
My Awakening….
He called me out on it…
He helped me to see.
Though I wasn’t living in the past
The present was lost to me….
I was holding on to ‘our’ dreams
Afraid to let go
Afraid if I did that
I’d have no where to go….
But that wasn’t the truth
Cause by letting go
I was giving myself permission
To move forward on my own…
My happiness I was attaching
To his memory
Unfair on all accounts
But mostly unfair to me..
I am responsible for my happiness
I am responsible for my life..
Letting go and moving on
Is also my right…
Doesn’t mean our love is gone
Not a chance in hell of that
But he is there and I am here
And that is just a fact….
I’m coming out of the Fog
Seeing a new path..
Many forks and detours
But Im drawing up my map…
Clarity is an amazing thing
With open eyes and heart
My Spirit is Awakening
I’m ready to start……
I’M READY TO FLY
@lindafedroff_august2017
Jim will always be with me…his guidance I’ll always look for. But, I am wholly responsible for my happiness. I’ve been telling myself that happiness is unattainable to me, that I may never be happy again…how unfair that is to myself….how unfair to Jims memory. As I move forward, living my now according to Linda and not Linda & Jim, I will look within, I will make peace and I will live.
Special thanks to Lady Calen for Always being there since this journey started, hell before it started…you’ve held my hand so to speak…you listened and still you don’t think I’m crazy!!! 😄
T….you’ve known me a long time. Thank you for not treating me with kid gloves…and for that bit of tough love. I know you loved making me speechless!! 😄
I am always here to listen and talk. I’m so impressed with my own opinions! 😉 😀 Besides which I love ya and no, you’re not crazy! ❤ I LOVE that quote from the book. What book is that?
The quote is from Eternal Echoes ❤
Oh right! You said you were rereading it. It’s been a few years since I read it.
I’ll have to look and see if it’s underlined in MY book!
I’m curious to hear if it is!!
Hey… What page is that?
Fly, little dragonfly, fly !!!
:))))) Thanks Raili!!!!!
Good luck on your new journey Linda.
Great beautiful. That excerpt was very enlightening. 💙🖤
Thank you so much! 🙏