Christmas Eve…Missing Him…Remembering Us ❤💚

This is my Christmas Eve post to my Widows Group. Thought I’d share it here as well. So many of us are missing loved ones..so many of us dealing with our grief and pain silently. My wish for you, that somewhere amongst the grief and pain you can find some semblance of comfort and peace..be it with family and/or friends..or lost in your loving memories.

Our loved ones will Always be with us…I know this to be true, as I live it everyday….

Good Morning and Merry Christmas Eve ❤💚

This will be my second Christmas without My Jim. Jim and I never treated or followed the ‘rules’ when it came to holidays and gifts. When we got together, Jim asked me how I felt if he took a page from his beloved grandparents ‘book of relationships and life’ and follow their lead. He said they rarely bought each other gifts for the holidays, instead choosing to treat each day of their lives together and love they shared as the gift it was….Jim used to say I don’t need a calendar to tell me when I have to give you a gift or tell you I Love You. So…that’s how we approached things…….I will miss our routine Peppermint Martinis and Polar Express Christmas Eve..I will watch the movie tonight minus the martini….I’ll miss our sunrise mimosas on the beach Christmas morning and our afternoon viewing of my favorite Christmas movie, the Alistair Sims version and classic A Christmas Carol…both of which I will do by myself and my memories. I will be spending time with my daughter and her family today and tomorrow. I will celebrate the real reason for the season and remind myself of how incredibly Blessed I am..for I Am Loved ❤💚

Ok, with that said, I’m sharing a poem I wrote last Christmas Eve, my first without Jim. It’s crazy how fast the time has flown by…but our Love..his Love..continues to grow..it is my precious gift.

As is Your Loves. Those of you who are in the midst of your journeys of firsts…hold tight to your memories and your love…and Know they are with you. This is the season of miracles….Believe ❤💚🙏

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I’m incredibly Blessed……

but the emptiness is real.

I feel his presence, but I miss him so…….

This is ….My first Christmas without you

And though It’s hard to celebrate….

The gift of your love is one I cherish

And one I will hold dear for goodness sake…..

I hear your laughter in my mind

I close my eyes, I imagine your touch

My love for you is forever

The gift of your love…is enough

©lindafedroff_december2016

Tradition: sit with husband in a room lit only by tree lights and remember that our blessings outnumber the lights. Happy Christmas to all. ~Betsy Cañas Garmon~

Loved this quote…I’m a sucker for little white fairy lights and have them up all year round. We loved sitting in our small living room with nothing but the fairy lights lit, sometimes talking, sometimes in that companionable silence that was us.

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11 thoughts on “Christmas Eve…Missing Him…Remembering Us ❤💚

  1. Your memories are so wonderful and the Love you shared will continue, you know Jim is there taking care of you protecting you and most of all sending you his Love. Look to the Sky every night poppet, the biggest Star you will see is Jim, always there for you. We who have lost those we loved, will shed a tear or two opening gifts or sitting down to Christmas Dinner, or even at a quiet moment all alone the tears may fall but its natural. Thoughts are with you all the time, distance is no barrier, I send you my love and I am here whenever you need me. Jim’s Love was so very special. you were so lucky to have someone love you so much.

  2. It’s can be such a difficult time of the year for many people for lots of reasons (and I think the fact that it’s supposed to be “the most wonderful time of the year” can only add to the sadness). I’m glad you are sharing your experiences, and your beautiful memories. I wish you a very peaceful Christmas. ❤

  3. Oh Linda, this was so beautiful. I know it’s hard, but you know he’s with you still, and take comfort in the warm blanket that is family. Merry Christmas to you and yours. By the way, I count knowing you as one of the many blessings I’m thankful for. Hope y’all have a terrific holiday. 😊😊

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