Today is 20 months…608 says….since I last saw him ❤
Time has not stopped. The sun still rises, and I greet each new sunrise with a grateful heart. The sun still sets, and with the setting of the sun, I end my day with a grateful heart. My inbetween, well each day is different. More good days, some just ok days. The bad days, still have them….and when I do, I allow myself to feel that grief and pain and sadness………..
Today my heart hurts. I miss him. Always I Miss Him. But, I’m so grateful for these memories and the opportunity to share them..which I will do till I draw my last breath..even though there are those folks out there who think we shouldn’t, as long as I’m breathing I will talk and share my memories of my Jim……
Life is different
Without you here.
Yet,
Although I can’t see you
I feel you are near….
The pain of losing you
Is one I can’t bare.
Yet,
I choose to celebrate us
And the love that we share.
©lindafedroff_november2016
(Thank you FB for the reminders…a morning we spent together (3 years ago today) at ‘our’ beach’ ❤)
Spiritual Dragonfly 
Beautifully said
People who do not walk in our shoes often do not understand where we’re coming from
Every night before I go to sleep I say good night to my guy. I believe that even though he’s no longer with me he hears me in heaven
Thank you!
I talk to Jim constantly. I always say ‘babe, you’re NEVER going to Rest in Peace until we are reunited lol
Beautiful words Linda, and yes we’ll always still have our heartfelt days, and like you I bath myself in those glorious memories. 😊 Lots of hugs to you 🤗🤗😚
Thank you Ivor!! Hugs are always welcomed!!! xx
Linda my heart is with you today and every day.
I find that while we cannot physically touch those we have lost, we feel them more within ourselves than we ever did when we had them with us in that way. I have not lost a spouse to death, but have lost many I loved over the years and find I end up inheriting their strengths to a degree, so they are being noticed and “here” as long as I am. I hope I haven’t bungled my words here- just wanted to provide some comfort from someone who knows and feels what you are trying to convey.
XOXO
Thank You Shannon…and you haven’t bungled…..I feel Jim with me all the time and for the most part I have found my peace….but every so often, like today I just feel an overwhelming sense of sadness and lonliness
You said it Linda.
Thanks for sticking with me Opher…this journey would have been so much more awful and lonely without ‘my tribe’
You’re right, those who haven’t experienced that kind of loss will never understand, it’s not that they don’t want to, but you really have to go there to experience it. All that you feel, in my humble opinion is the truth because you and he knew the truth and he being gone materially does not mean he is gone in spirit or where he lives in your heart. That is as real as anything I know. Love does not die.
No the love never dies…it continues to grow and he surely lives on in my heart. Thank you for your kind comment…
You are more than welcome. I think of you often and I pray for you and I pray for your heart. I think your words are beautiful in their appreciation and eulogy of love. If we are capable of true love as you are, we have lived. That I truly believe. I am sending you much love and care.
Thank you so much for your kinds words! We were incredibly Blessed and lived a full life of love in the time we had together!
We never seem to have enough time with those we love. But that we had the time, and the love, those things never go. I think of you and I send you much love from me to you lovely dragonfly girl
Thank you so much!! ❤
🙏🤗
This is a very touching poem, Linda. I am glad you have an outlet for sharing. Jim would like that. 🙂
Thank you Luanne!! My writing definitely is an outlet and Jim is still my biggest cheerleader!! :))
It goes like that, doesn’t it. Something triggers a memory and pain surges for a while. Another bit of grief work done xxxx
absolutely Raili!! and today is a new day! :)))
Don’t listen to what others say. Jim is alive through your very words! Lovely picture…
Thanks C!! I (heart) You!!!