Sounds Of Silence

Another week, and another go-round at The Sandbox Writing Challenge

Week 10’s challenge is to answer the question:


As I sit here pondering that question, I’ve decided to pull up the definition of fascinate………this was meaning number one……….

1. to attract and hold attentively by a unique power, personal charm, unusual nature, or some other special quality; enthrall: a vivacity that fascinated the audience.

So, now I have the definition…..I’m still sitting here, with the window open, listening to the wind whipping through the trees….and still pondering as to what ‘enthralls’ me at this moment in my life (I’ve got a case of widow blues going on 😞) but then……..LIGHT BULB MOMENT 💡


I know, if I’m listening to sounds, how is that silence. For whatever reason I don’t consider nature to be noise. So for me it fits into my own personal definition of Silence. Be it the wind, rain, bird song, crashing waves, the peepers at night, I attribute all to my quiet time. Nature’s silence is soothing. It also makes me feel alive. It’s my elixir. My healer. So for me, what fascinates this gal right now, is the Sounds Of Silence.


Saturday Sound Bites-Simplify/Simplicity

I’ve missed the last few Saturdays of Lady Calen’s Saturday Sound Bites.

This weekend she poses the question….

If you could own only four possessions for the rest of your life, what would they be?

Ive decided to bend the ‘rules’ here and change it up just a tad, oh ok, I’m doing a total 360 here!! Instead of listing four possessions that would simplify…I’m going to share four things that to me, at this moment, exemplify the beauty and SIMPLICITY of a moment………

Like the unexpected , sporadic blooming of daffodils all around my property.

Looking up and seeing a sky full of cotton balls.

The flowering blossoms of a Pear Tree

…and unexpectedly finding a path that lead me to water.

Sandbox Writing Challenge-Taking Flight

It’s time for the pick-ax and shovel. Yep,,it’s The Sandbox Writing Challenge-Exercise 6

This week’s challenge is What is holding you back? Now you can interpret that any way you’d like. Is there something you really, really want to do but just can’t quite get up the courage? Somewhere you want to go but haven’t for some reason? You decide how to answer this question.

As usual, remember to include a link to this post on your blog. Or if your response isn’t overly long, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. If you would like to play with us and see the previous prompts, they’re listed in the menu at the top of the blog in The Sandbox Writing Challenge. But please feel free to just jump in wherever we are at the moment! After all the prompts are really for YOU to get to know YOURSELF

What is holding Linda (that would be me) back?

Me….Myself…and I.

I’ve struggled with this my entire life. When you’ve been told over and over again that you’re not going to amount to anything, you begin to believe it and then live it. I had No confidence in myself or abilities. Then I stumbled across the Sandbox Writing Challenge, and that would change my life…..

Throughout the first SBWC..I discovered my voice and by doing so, I found not only confidence, I found I did have something to say and share. I learned A LOT about myself in my past ‘dig’. I rediscovered a lost little girl and helped her find her voice and slay the boogeyman. I healed and let go of a very broken past. I did all this with Jims love, support and encouragement.

This time around, I’m excavating this life I’m attempting to live without Jim and I feel as though I’m at a standstill.

He helped me preen my wings, and he was there to see me take flight…….

But now, I feel grounded once again.

Yes…after many detours, I got myself here… my POINT A. And here, I feel is a place I can plant some roots. It’s a place I can ‘just be’. Yet, as I recently told Lady Calen in one of our many phone conversations, I’m getting itchy feet (wings) This girl wants to fly the coop….I want to soar. For the first time in my life I have only myself to answer to. That’s kinda liberating, especially for someone like me who has NEVER been on her own. While it’s liberating and exciting, it’s scary as all hell too!

Hopefully, while I continue this dig….I’ll find my way to flying once again.


Misty Morning….

Yesterday morning, when I opened my blinds, I was gifted this beautiful misty view. I took the photo and the words (Like A Misty Veil) started swirling in my head….so this is what came from that.

There is no running away from the (my) past. No matter where I go, what I do, it follows. It and he, are a part of me.


Like a misty veil of fog

Dissipating under the suns rays

My mind, my heart, my spirit

Slowly Awakens….

Somehow, along the way, between the dark and the light, I’m finding myself again.

©lindafedroff_february5/6, 2018


Relaxing and Finding Pleasure In My Widow’s World

Alrighty now……it’s that time of the week again. The Sandbox Writing Challenge-Exercise 4 is at hand. Exercise 4 asks……..


Relaxation & Pleasure

Tell us a little bit about:

a) what relaxes you, and 

b) what brings you pleasure.

Hmmmmmm….what relaxes me at this phase/stage of my life? A hot shower…glass of wine….. Putting on the relaxing sounds of either rain falling or peepers courtesy of my Relax Melodies App. But mostly, it’s time spent outside. When I feel like I’m losing it, be it stress, anxiety, grief/pain, sadness….I’ll go outside and hug my tree…..I can literally feel the tension, the grief, the pain..all of it, seep out of me.





As so what brings me pleasure…All of the above. Time spent with my children and grandchildren always brings me pleasure……a long phone conversation with a friend. Music!! Singing out loud and not giving a hoot who hears me (was singing/dancing right along with Lady Gaga in the frozen foods aisle of Harris Teeter and yes I did get some looks 🤣😳)

Reading a book and coming across words that speak to my heart as these words did today……”PRAYERS ARE ANSWERED IN WAYS WE DON’T CHOOSE. THE RIVER OF GRACE BUBBLES UP IN UNEXPECTED PLACES.” Last, but not least, remembering Him, remembering Us …Week 68 ❤😔

What I’ve come to understand as I continue on this journey is that I’ll ALWAYS miss Jim and the life we shared. It is because of our love that I find ways to relax and find pleasure. I owe it to myself and to him to LIVE. He would want and expect nothing less from me. I’m LIVING MY LIFE OUT LOUD FOR THE BOTH OF US!

Now don’t get me wrong….I still experience really crappy days. Before writing this post yesterday I broke down in tears while driving for no other reason then I miss him……this is part of my life and will be till the day we are reunited. But until we are, I refuse to allow the grief and pain to take over…….of course if I was answering these questions a year ago my answers would probably be a bit different…healing as far as I can tell, will be a lifetime thing. I feel that by allowing myself to enjoy some of these little things without guilt is paramount to my healing……..just my 2-cents.