4 years. A Widow.

Despite his physical absence, I love my Jim. He will always live on inside my heart.❤️

First, let me say, I Love October. Autumn is my favorite season. The colors. The smells. The crispness in the air. Pumpkin everything!!!Still warm temperatures. But then you have the other side of October.

It’s the anniversary of Jim’s death, his deathiversary has arrived for the fourth time. There’s no outrunning it. There’s nowhere to hide from it. My favorite season also transports me back to that day four years ago that I learned what it was to grieve, really grieve.

So much has happened in those four years, yet some days it feels like Jim died yesterday. It’s hard to believe that my life could go on without him, but somehow it has. Without him I had no idea how to exist. But bit by bit, I’m coming to a place where I’m realigning and I’m moving forward. I’m throwing away all preconceived ideas of what I thought my life should be looking like four years later.

Instead, I’m trusting that God has each day of my life perfectly planned out for me to the day that I depart from this life.Today, I’m turning my grief to blessings by remembering that God is guiding my steps.

“The heart of a man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” Proverbs 16:9 (ESV)

Father, Thank You that there is healing in Your presence. Fill me fresh with Your Spirit and renew my heart and mind in Your truth. I release my sorrow to You, and I ask You to fill every void in my heart with Your peace and love.Thank You for my Jim’s life on this earth and the time I had with him. I know I will see him again in Your timing. I choose to give You honor and praise always. Thank You Father for healing my heart. In Jesus’s name I pray, Amen

Beach Soul Stroll 👣

My first beach soul stroll this year. So many memories. So many miles of soul strolling behind me…I’m grateful to be soul strolling forward….Cloudy, but beautiful nonetheless.

Our Heavenly Father, open our eyes and our hearts. Help us to see the wonderments in today. No matter how easy or how tough our day might be, the wonder of You in our hearts is our source of joy and our strength. Show us life by showing us more of You. Help us leave tomorrow alone so that we can live today. In Jesus’ Name, Amen. 🙏

Look closely at the sky..what do you see?
Breathe in the salt air
Hearts

Road Trip 🚙

Roadtripped it back ‘home’ to Chincoteague today. The days are ticking down to Jim’s fourth Angelversary, and there’s no place I’d rather be then here, with my memories. Memories can and do fade, but the ones I hold dear to my heart, I don’t ever see them fading. So, it’s a beer on the front porch of my friends island cottage, the sound of the gulls as the rain trickles down. I’m grateful and blessed to be back.

3 hour pit stop..great dismal swamp.
Crossing the Chesapeake
First tunnel
Crossing the causeway to Chincoteague
Front porchin’ it 🍺

Tuesday Morning Haiku and Prayer ☀️🙏🙌

Awoke this morning to a misty landscape. The sun started its ascent and with it the fog started to dissipate…

Misty veil of fog

Murky Sunlight burning through

Clearer things become

©️lindamarie

The heavens declare the glory of God,
and the sky above proclaims his handiwork. (Psalm 9:1)

Father, Thank You for the gift of this new day and for Your boundless grace. Lord, Your amazing unearned favor has helped put us on the path of Your love and grace. May we abide by the disciplines that you have set out before us regularly, and continue to bring glory to Your name. In Jesus’s name we pray…Amen 🙏