I’m An Overcomer!!

Yesssssssss…I Am!

You ever come across a song that just resonates with you?!?! Well that happened a few days ago. I was playing around with the search button trying to find a radio station to listen to. It stopped, and this song came on…OVERCOMER. Turns out the radio station was KLOVE and the singer was MANDISA (of American Idol fame). She actually was a fav of mine back then. Not a listener of gospel music per se, I hadn’t heard much of her over the years……..ANYWAY, This song! It’s in my head….got home and YOUTUBE it! Holy Moly!

Downloaded it to my ITunes….it’s put a skip to my step…literally. Got some looks while dance/walking yesterday from my neighbors..lol

It also got me thinking…a lot. We’re all dealing with ‘stuff’. When I’m in the midst of my pain and darkness, it’s easy to forget that there are others out there struggling right along with me, through their own grief and pain. Whether it’s loss, addiction, sickness….we all have our crosses to bear, our walks to walk, our ‘stuff’ to OVERCOME. I’m not making light of my journey or anyone else’s. More to the point, I’m humbled and inspired by the strength of others who overcame their own obstacles and journeys. (That would be YOU).

Today is day 418 since my life changed and a new journey was laid out before me. In that time, though I’ve privately bottomed out with my grief, I’ve also kept going. And I will continue to do so. And when I hit a snag, I’ll work my way through it, cause I know I’m not alone.

Yes…my life has changed. I see things through a widow’s eyes. I feel things with a widow’s heart. But I was and still am loved. And I have a whole lotta living to do!!

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My Awakening…..

Well folks, after 307 days, I’m emerging from my Fog. It took some time, but I’m beginning to see things through different, clearer eyes. A few ah-ha moments, a whole lotta tears have helped me break-through some of my self-imposed barriers that I didn’t even really know were there……….this song popped up this morning and then these words just spilled out….

 

My Awakening….

 

He called me out on it…

He helped me to see.

Though I wasn’t living in the past

The present was lost to me….

 

I was holding on to ‘our’ dreams

Afraid to let go

Afraid if I did that

I’d have no where to go….

 

But that wasn’t the truth

Cause by letting go

I was giving myself permission

To move forward on my own…

 

My happiness I was attaching

To his memory

Unfair on all accounts

But mostly unfair to me..

 

I am responsible for my happiness

I am responsible for my life..

Letting go and moving on

Is also my right…

 

Doesn’t mean our love is gone

Not a chance in hell of that

But he is there and I am here

And that is just a fact….

 

I’m coming out of the Fog

Seeing a new path..

Many forks and detours

But Im drawing up my map…

 

Clarity is an amazing thing

With open eyes and heart

My Spirit is Awakening

I’m ready to start……

I’M READY TO FLY

@lindafedroff_august2017

Jim will always be with me…his guidance I’ll always look for. But, I am wholly responsible for my happiness. I’ve been telling myself that happiness is unattainable to me, that I may never be happy again…how unfair that is to myself….how unfair to Jims memory. As I move forward, living my now according to Linda and not Linda & Jim, I will look within, I will make peace and I will live.

Special thanks to Lady Calen for Always being there since this journey started, hell before it started…you’ve held my hand so to speak…you listened and still you don’t think I’m crazy!!! 😄

T….you’ve known me a long time. Thank you for not treating me with kid gloves…and for that bit of tough love. I know you loved making me speechless!! 😄

Today I Am Grateful 🙏

Day 4: I’m Grateful that …. I Listened To My Heart ❤️ and I’m still Listening to it ❤️ By believing and opening myself up, I hear Your whispers……..there will not be a goodbye because I feel you, just on the other side of the door.

Here’s some Roxette for you babe ❤️

A Little Bit Of Harmony 

Ok…..So Lady Calen, who,is presiding over us at the Sandbox Writing Challenge has posed this question to us this week…..

Imagine yourself floating among these clouds in harmony with everyone and everything. What can you do to make that happen?


So, like Rolling Blogger, the first thing that came to mind was The Seekers singing this song from the 70’s, which I happen to have on my ITunes playlist….I love the music of the 70’s!! 😊

As for answering the question of how can I make living in harmony happen?!?! Quite honestly, Damned if I know?! It seems so many are hell bent on distruction……with the chaos of our political circus in full swing…the enormous role of social media pitting one against the other…….harmony, as well as truth, seem to be words almost erased from our vocabulary these days……..seems to me that over the last few years, few months even, discord, hate and violence has become the norm 😩

SOOOOOOOOOO………………



I’m putting on my rose-colored glasses 😎 and I’ll continue to Believe that goodness will prevail. I will continue to smile, to be as good and kind a person as I can be, and hope the positive mojo I choose to share, causes a bit of a ripple effect….and in doing so, bring about a little bit of harmony in an often times, not so harmonious world…………..And I will Sing 😊
I Love Love Love the Little Mermaid 💚🐠