30 Days Of Gratitude….Day 28 🙏

Happy Thanksgiving to All 🙏❤️

“Early morning blessings rise with the sun.

The golden glow lights everything afire.

Thanksgiving Blessings are felt as the

warm glow of a new day emerges.

It is also a reminder to keep a grateful heart

not just today

but everyday.

Happy Thanksgiving from my heart to yours. 🙏💛☀️

…and *mimosa cheers* to My Jim. 🥂

Love and Miss You Husband ❤️

30 Days Of Gratitude … Days 13-14 🙏

I Am Thankful and Grateful

Day 13: finding some of Jim’s words 😊❤️

FROM THE BEACH

The Mystery Of Life can not be more clearly explained then by

comparing Human Life to an Ocean Wave.

Human Life begins as does the Ocean Wave, mysteriously beyond

the horizon and out of sight.

Yet, from the time of their creation, we know they exist. In their

infancy they are recognized as a miracle, a gift from our Creator

and watched with awe.

As they grow, they are affected by the elements and forces of

nature which cannot be; controlled, contained and at times

explained.

In maturity, they can be warm and gentle or cold and forbidding:

productive or destructive.

As they pass maturity, they both strain to hold on to their

individuality and existence.

The Wave, after crashing onto a beach, surges in a froth, spreading

more and more slowly until it can no longer continue, in ‘death’, it is

forced to retreat back to the Ocean, its universe, to be reborn as a

new Force Of Nature.

Man, when no longer able to sustain a worldly existence, in death,

retreats back to his universe to be reborn as a new Force Of Nature.

All Life Is Precious and All Life Is Eternal.

©JF_June2008

Day 14: I Am Thankful and Grateful for each little miracle, like watching the birds in my feeder 🙏

Heavenly Father, sometimes, ok a lot if times, I tend to take my miracles for granted, or I take for granted You already know that I am grateful, so I don’t express my gratitude as often as I should. Whatever my reasons, today, this moment, I pray to you on fallen knees, how Grateful I Am.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen

1 Thessalonians 5:18, “In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” (NKJV)

Romans 14:6a, “Whoever regards one day as special does so to the Lord.” (NIV)

1 Chronicles 16:34, “Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.” (NIV)

30 Days Of Gratitude… Day 12 🙏

Day 12 As a new day arises fresh and anew, so is my gratitude renewed. 🙏

“Give thanks to the Lord of lords: to him who alone does great wonders, who by his understanding made the heavens, who spread out the earth upon the waters, who made the great lights – the sun to govern the day, the moon and stars to govern the night…” (Psalm 136:3-9).

Whenever I have question (when don’t I?)

Or I just need a place to ‘be’

I take myself outside (Gods House)

It’s where I feel closest to Him. (always)

I sit in silence (me silent?!)

Only to be serenaded by the song and

chirps of my backyard cardinals. (Bird music)

And

I pray.

And

I heal.

And

I praise Him for this

life of mine.

That only He can give me.

I Am Thankful

And

I Am Grateful

3 Years….My Journey Continues 👣

3 Years ago today, my Jim walked out the door, and my life forever changed.

I’ve Missed Your Face

I’ve Missed Your Smile

I’ve Missed Your Laugh

All this while….

But what I Miss most

Is Who We Used to be..

The we – we were

When it was You and Me.

You’re gone from this world

But you LIVE in my heart

Till we meet again

And are no longer apart.

I Love you husband

I always will

Our Love hasn’t died

It grows and LIVES still.

©linda fedroff_october14

I walk the beach in the predawn hours. Sky in monotones of gray, not going to be much of a sunrise this morning. Airs a bit chilly, water cool on my skin as I soul stroll. There’s enough of a breeze for the sea foam to partner and dance with. Aside from the gulls and plovers, I am alone.

I stop and stand at the waters edge, watching as the sky lightens with each passing moment.

Closing my eyes, I can hear the whispers on the wind asking me “what is your story?” All the while the waves lap up and around my feet, anchoring me in that spot, as if waiting and begging for my answer…….and what is my answer on this day, three years since my Jim left this world??

My life continues to move forward,

And I’m continuing to grow.

I’m given a choice to make every single morning,

And what I choose is to get up each and every day,

Thank the Good Lord, and ask for his continued guidance.

I start my day determined to live and find

My purpose, all the while never losing sight of all

The blessings in my life.

I shouted out into the wind, that I Choose Hope.

I came back here to celebrate Jim and his memory.

And I thank God every day for the gift of loving Jim

And he loving me, and for the adventure and life we shared.

Until we meet again husband, I will continue to live my life out loud

And make you proud. This is how I Choose to Live.

[The body dies…but love…that lives on and continues to grow]

Saying Goodbye

Those who have been following me for some time know that I haven’t had a relationship with my father (his doing, not mine) since summer of 2006. With his wife’s passing in May of ’18, it was my hope, that we would be able to find our way back to each other. Finding out he had dementia, that was never to be…..and from that news these words came to be………

I said goodbye to you years ago

and I made my peace.

Though I would never understand

or comprehend

A fathers love so incomplete.

I accepted it for what it was

moving forward with my life.

Thoughts of you every now and then

Still and would cut like a knife.

There was Always

Always a hope

Of some sort of reconciliation.

That thought was dashed

in one phone call

It’s message a revelation.

Though physically you are here

you are ‘gone’ from this life

No longer do you remember

You’ve been released of the strife

What you do remember

I will never know

So one more time I’ll say goodbye

and allow my tears to flow.

I’ll cry for unanswered questions

and the dad I needed/wanted you to be

Now lost to dementia

You’re like a lost boat, adrift at sea……

I’ll pray for your comfort

and for you to be set free

To be a better version

Of the man you used to be.

©️lindafedroff_may2018

My dad passed away July 12, one day after his 81st birthday. I shed my tears, and have dealt with the anger I felt at being cut out of his life. At feeling like I wasn’t good enough……I pray that somewhere inside, he knew his children loved him and wanted to be a part of his life. I pray he made his peace with God before he passed. I pray you are at peace. Love you Daddy ❤️