This. Just. Happened! (Yesterday)

My journey brought me here. My Jim, guiding the way…..I’m incredibly Blessed to have had this beautiful Soul of a person, Brianna, placed into my path, and join me on this rollercoaster ride of emotions…..she ‘held my hand’ every step of the way…..she brought me to a space I didn’t even know I wanted or needed……Thank You my sweet friend. ❤

This is all bittersweet and emotional for me……..7 months ago I lost the love of my life…but I know he’s with me. So,,until It’s time for me to be back in Jim’s arms…I. Am. Home ❤🏡

“I heard the breeze whisper your name to the trees. And the flowers giggled smiling at the leaves. I and my loneliness keep talking about you.” ~avijeet~


Friday. My nemesis. Friday. The day he left. Today is 29 weeks, 203 days since Jim gained his wings. I’ve been working very hard at learning to celebrate my Friday’s and not dread them. I’d say I’m 70-30 there. 


This made me smile as I remember out first ‘date’. We were two married people who knew each other from working in the same store, acquaintances, nothing more. I left the store and didn’t see Jim for almost 5 months. When we unexpectedly bumped into each other, turns out both our lives had changed. We were both separated. He said let’s go out for a burger and a beer sometime. That wouldn’t happen for another 2 months. When it did, we bought sandwiches and Rolling Rock Beer and went and sat on his friends boat. The conversation flowed easily, as we talked about out lives, our families. It was a beautiful late May Day. The sun was sparkling off the lake. We found ourselves just sitting, quietly, staring at the water as the boat gently rocked. I remember thinking in my head…This is so nice. The silence is comfortable. At some point, I had leaned into him and we just continued to sit in that beautiful quietude. 

2 people came together that day as friends looking for nothing more then conversation…we left that boat connected by something neither of us had ever experienced before. 

We would come to enjoy many many more of those silent comfortable moments………………..I have no doubt y’all know what I’m talking about. Today, I hope you’ll join me in finding and stealing some special quiet time to sit with the memory of your beloved.

I Love You Husband ❤

The picture of us below was taken by a friend last Memorial Day. I remember it well. No conversation…just the water and dragonflies and Jims hand on my arm ❤

Listen with Your Heart

Faith requires following the power of a whisper.” ~Shannon L. Alder~
Good afternoon my friends/family. The above quote is my quote for the day……today was, for me, the start of my new book..chapter one. It was inspection day for the house and property I’m purchasing. 

My White Oak Tree

The pull I felt from the moment I stepped foot on the property was so strong…I heard and hear the whispers. My daughter and I were greeted by my muse, the dragonfly….I then visited with my tree.

Inspections went well. Barring anything major I close two weeks from today……199 days ago, my life drastically changed. Physically, Jim is not here…but I hear him in the whispers of the trees…I see him in my visiting dragonfly….I feel him all around and inside of me…..I know he’s with me as I start this new book of mine…………

May you all hear the whispers of your beloved ❤

I have a peach tree 😊🍑

Wrinkles Of The Heart ❤

Good afternoon Everyone ☀💛

“Do not hide the wrinkles of your heart. Don’t try and iron them out or smooth them over. They are your life. Your wrinkles of life are special and unique. In these lines live your joys, your heartaches, your pain and your laughter. You don’t need to get rid of them. Instead, let them breathe and grow, for it is in these wrinkles that the most beautiful parts of you can be found.” ~JB~ 

Photo Credit: Pinterest

I posted this on my FB 2 years ago…it never ceases to amaze me that things I posted long ago, still find ways to speak to me now. Back then, I was in the midst of healing from my past,,I was putting my broken pieces back together…..and I did. Sure the pieces don’t quite fit perfectly, but that’s to allow my light to shine ☀

And y’all know what Jimmy Buffet says, “wrinkles only go where the smiles have been.” 

Jim made my heart not only smile…but sing!  

I hope the sun shines down on you today and you find a small reason to smile 💛☀

My Wings…

My journey into Widowhood, has found me now, one of many contributing administrators to a FB widows healing group. My role is providing my take on my journey as I navigate, in as positive a way as I can, my life after Jim. I thought I’d share some of my posts here, one never knows who I can reach…….

Good Afternoon Folks! Busy start to the day as we had a ‘date’ at the local bookstore with Peppa Pig. If you have children/ grandchildren I’m sure you know who I’m talking about! As for me…I was ‘designated’ driver for Maddox 😊

Just call me Maddox’s Taxi

My Kristen and Jemma and the very famous Peppa Pig 😊🐷🐷

So as I was contemplating what I wanted to write today, I was watching my daughter and the other young parents with their children, and I was reminded of something I always used to say in regards to my own children….that I wanted them to grow their own wings and learn to fly……………………….I feel as though, at this time in my life, as I’m learning to adjust to my role as Jims widow, that while I thought I had grown my wings, those wings were grown with the help of others….I’ve come to realize My wings still have a lot more growing to do….for the first time in my life my growth is happening solo. As frightening as that was and is, I’m learning how to depend upon myself, because I have no other choice. The Linda I am today, is still a work in progress. I have Faith and I Believe my wings are gonna be Awesome! 

Last night was a big party on White Street here! I choose to celebrate Jim on Friday…these wings of mine are slowly growing

“Pain is a pesky part of being human, I’ve learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can’t be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.”  W~C. JoyBell C.~