Seasons Change…Your Love Remains

My time on the island is drawing to a close, and while I’ve sat with friends and reminisced, soul strolled the beach and remembered the wonderful life Jim and I shared, I’m looking forward to getting home. Yes, the grief still visits, but it has softened. I’m leaving here in peace. It’s a peace that has come with time, but it has also come with growth. God’s Love has grown me in ways I can’t even explain over the last year, which has made this visit all the more transforming.

“ There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance…”
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

(The natural rhythm of the seasons applies to our lives and knowing there is a natural rhythm, a “time to weep and a time to laugh,” gives us permission to let go of perfectionist expectations of our lives. It lightens our burdens by giving us hope for the future in the midst of trial and prepares us for times of struggle – until the day comes when there will be no more winter and no more tears. ~Sarah Phillips)

We can’t have just one season, one life of endless summers….on this chilly, windy, autumn October day, 4 years and 3 days since Jim died, I’m accepting and embracing my season and I’m going home.

Merciful God, We praise you because you know all things, see all things, and remember us. Thank you that we can depend on your presence with us in every season and situation, that each time has purpose and meaning. We are grateful that each season is orchestrated by you, even the harder ones. Help us to see your hand and guidance in our lives as we go through changes, the highs, and the lows. May we grow in trust and persevere in the valleys. How great you are, oh God, for being so intentional to care for us in every season. For even when things seem glum, your light continues to shine on us in mercy and grace.Amen.

❤️

40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 16

DAY 16 — Tuesday, January 21, 2020

Amazon Prime. Target. Social Media. Starbucks… What is the Lord teaching you about Himself today?

I’ve been thinking about Amazon Prime myself… how I can place and order and two days later (BAM) it shows up on my front door. BUT WITH JESUS… with Jesus we’re told that He’s already on the front door knocking. He’s already there, eager to be let into the deep empty places.

I want to be filled to overflowing, how about you?

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“A full cart never makes a heart full.”

“run to the Comforter, He will fill you with His comfort.”

My life changed drastically the day my husband died unexpectedly of a heart attack. 3 weeks after his death found me packed up with few belongings and moving in with my son and his family. Things eventually settled down and I was able to find my own place to live…I get by on a fixed income..the thing I discovered was how much stuff I can truly live without……though admittedly, I have used retail therapy to help me get through some of those tough days when grief comes knocking at my door. Instead of letting it in and addressing it and turning to God, I’ve opened up Amazon, or taken a walk through Kohl’s for my sneaker fix. I know I need to turn … no actually I do need to run to God and His Word, and remember I am full, with the Holy Spirit:

But being full of the Holy Spirit, he gazed intently into heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God; Acts 7:55

Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. Romans 8:26

My Answers Are Within

Another go-round of The Sandbox Writing Challenge is under way. This week’s prompt is…..

What message just for you

is hidden in this ancient writing?

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I’ve decided to read my message in the ancient ‘writings’ within the bark of my Old Wise One who watches over me.

What does he have to tell me?!?! A Lot it seems!!

My tree is telling me that though I am finally at a place that I am putting down some roots, I also have wings that need tending to as well.

My roots finally have fertile soil, a place to stretch out and grow deep. They’re giving me a place to rest. A place to Just Be.

All The While…….

My wings want to take me to far away places, physically And metaphorically. Physically, in a ‘perfect world’ I’d visit those place I’ve read about and visit in my dreams. And then I’d return home once more, to rest before the next great adventure. Unfortunately, in my Real World, it’s not really an option, though I am going to work on some sort of travel.

Metaphorically, it’s with my creativity that I want to fly. With my words, my art, music. I want to release it to the universe. I need to set myself free from the constraints of my own making and allow my creativity to flow.

I’m being reminded that every thought, every word, every choice I make is helping me to create the treasure that is my life. He reminds me that my life is an ever- changing journey, that nothing ever really stays the same……

And then He shared this….from some very wise unknown person….

“Life is sublime and devastating, but it doesn’t own you. It cannot break you. We come into and leave this world alone. If you know and accept and love you, that should be a comfort, not a terror. You always have a place in this universe. You always have you.

Life is art. Life is magic.”

And so are you.

Signs Of Change

Well, after an absolutely dreary cold damp and rainy Saturday…the sun, slighter milder temps, and wind made an appearance today. Took a Soul Stroll down to the lake..nice to see water….


Sat on my rock…have to admit the tears have been springing up more frequently lately. Lady Calen may be on to something…I’m 9 days away from leaving here to start the next leg of my journey…..I’m ready to fly, but it’s very bittersweet…….Speaking of Dragonfly wings…..obviously it’s way to soon to see any Dragonflies hovering about…..BUT……………….I did catch a glimpse of a Dragonfly Nymph!

I’m taking this as a really Cool Sign……I’m ready for my Emergence…..the next cycle of this crazy journey that is my life. After almost 6 months of ‘gestation’ ..I’m ready for this….my transformation……it is bittersweet, but I know Jim is guiding me along.

After this encounter, I went over to the river to listen to natures music and left my own little sign…..

My Soul Strolls will continue

Though the paths I walk have changed…….

It’s Change and Transformation

That are waiting for me….

Leaving my ‘nymph’ stage behind me

My newly grown wings are prepared

To take me along on this next cycle that is my life.

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