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2020 Photo Challenge

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2020 Photo Challenge

173 weeks since you’ve been gone 😞 love and miss you husband ❤️

As long as I live

As long as I breathe the air

He lives on in me

Attaining stillness

One cannot help but be moved

By our beating hearts

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40 Day Sugar Fast….Day 8

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DAY 8 — Monday, January 13, 2020

What have you turned to in your stress over the years? If it is anything other than Christ, it wasn’t created to carry you through this life — let alone into the eternal-life prepared for us? You may have known that at the start of this fast (that it’s not sugar’s job) but what are you learning about Christ’s desire and ability to carry you through?

Isn’t He faithful? Isn’t He strong? Isn’t He wonderful?

Tell me if you’re finding Him true to His Word: “Behold, God is my helper; the Lord is the upholder of my life.” (Psalm 54:4)

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This first week has opened my eyes to how I mindlessly reached for something sugary and sweet just because….whether it was my grief, boredom, stress or anxiety or watching Netflix, I always had something within reach to snack on……but now, I’m turning to reading Scripture, praying, even coloring while listening to instrumental music when urges really hit.

Just a little while ago, while going through some totes, my thoughts, on this unseasonably warm day in January, went to my late husband. Tears started to fall as I remember how much he loved this kind of weather, excited to put on a pair of shorts and grill something on his Weber. Suddenly it hit me that tomorrow will be 39 months since he died. Truth be told, I wanted to pour myself a glass of wine and break off a big ole piece of dark chocolate for lunch..instead I sipped herbal tea while reading Day 8 and writing this…….and I remember a late summer day in August of ‘17, 10 months after my husband died, and I wanted nothing more then to be with him..so much so I had written goodbye notes to my children. I sat down on the floor and for the first time in my life I really Really turned to God, telling Him I couldn’t do this alone anymore, I didn’t want to do it alone, and I needed Him. My life forever changed that day. There is no doubt He is truly the upholder of my life 🙏

Not long after that, Psalm 94:4 found its way to me…it’s become my life verse.

He shall cover you with His feathers,

And under His wings you shall take refuge; ( Psalm 94:4)