2020 Photo Challenge

2020 Photo Challenge

173 weeks since you’ve been gone 😞 love and miss you husband ❤️

As long as I live

As long as I breathe the air

He lives on in me

Attaining stillness

One cannot help but be moved

By our beating hearts

©lindafedroff_january25,2018

40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 13

DAY 13 — Saturday, January 18, 2020

If one verse could sum up the way we are crowding out sugar, it’s this one here: “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” (Matthew 6:33)

When we fix our eyes on Christ (and His righteousness) it’s miserably hard to fixate on foods.

Please take a moment to give me a big, juicy update. What is the Lord teaching you these days as you fast and pray? How has the Lord encouraged you? Share it below so that you might encourage others!

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Wow! This Chapter was just WOW. I’ve pretty much dieted on and off it seems like my whole life. I’ve been extremely heavy and I’ve been thin and everywhere in-between. When I hit the thin stage my thought was nothing feels better then skinny feels. I was treated differently thin..people made it a point to acknowledge me….when I was heavy, they did not. Thing was, even at my thinnest, I wasn’t fully happy or content. There was always something missing……………my journey has taken me up and down and all around, and because He is a loving and patient Father, He never gave up on me.

1 Samuel 16:7 really speaks to me…”The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”

While I’m making progress in spending more time in Gods Word and prayer instead of reaching for the chocolate, wine and ice cream, I have to admit I’m still reaching for something to help me get through the nights. I’m making better choices in what I’m reaching for, but I’m still reaching.

Dear God I come to you for strength—strength of body, strength of mind and strength of soul. I feel the infilling of your Spirit. I feel the assurance of your upholding presence. Thank you, God, for strength.

40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 12

DAY 12 — Friday, January 17, 2020

Have you been able to pin-point some of your gnarliest food triggers? I love how Asheritah Ciuciu says it in her book, Full.

“It’s useful for us to determine what our particular triggers are, and when faced with that trigger, we can make the intentional choice of whether to go to God or go to food.”

Share a bit about your most stubborn food triggers and what God is teaching you. I can’t wait to read what you’re learning!

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There is no doubt that my main trigger(s) were/are feelings…loneliness, grief (sadness) mindless boredom. My husbands unexpected death in ‘16 found me at the age of 53 alone for the first time in my entire life. That first year, I lived on coffee …. grapes (aka wine)…the good ole cacao bean (aka dark chocolate in any form) and ice cream, with the occasional salad thrown in for good measure. 3 + years later, I still struggle. I struggle with cooking for one, wondering what’s the sense in it. It’s easier to pour a glass of wine ( I always cut mine with club soda to make it a bit more justifiable to myself 🤦🏻‍♀️) and snack on said chocolate or cheese and crackers or pretzels or whatever. It’s the nights though, when I’m settled in…whatever show I may be watching on Netflix, I need to have my hand busy feeding myself…..cue the big bowls of ice cream…or just a jar of peanut butter and a spoon.

Knowing all this and making the changes needed is slowly happening. I know I have to eat. I can’t fast in the sense that I not eat, that’s just not an option. What I’m learning here is that I can make better choices for myself and know that when I feel the urge to reach for something I don’t need, I can turn to my Bible, I can turn to my prayer journal, I can turn to silent communion with God, and feast.

30 Days Of Gratitude…Day 30

Today…this last day of November, I AM GRATEFUL FOR MY JIM

Thank you Husband…..For your love and hugs.

For listening. Always listening, and never judging.

Our talks….Midnight grilled cheese chats and 3 a.m.

conversations about our journey together.

And the laughter….So much laughter. 😄

Thank you for giving me All of you, and accepting All

Of me, for in doing so, We became an Us ❤️

Thank you for 14 years 4 months of partnership…

I will cherish the memories and be Grateful

For every single moment of our journey and life

Together. The ups. The downs. The detours.

No matter where my journey takes me, you will be there. For it was through you that I learned to see, love and accept myself. You gave me the strength to grow……and I will honor your memory by continuing to do so…….you gave me my wings baby,,,,I’m gonna Fly. I. Love. You ❤️❤️❤️

His Journey
Don’t think of him as gone away, his journey’s just begun,
Life holds so many facets, this earth is only one.
Just think of him as resting, from the sorrows and the tears,
In a place of warmth and comfort, where there are no days or years.
Think how he must be wishing, that we could know today,
How nothing but our sadness, can really pass away.
And think of him as living, in the hearts of those he touched.
For nothing loved is ever lost, and he was/is loved so much. (author unknown)

30 Days Of Gratitude…Day 18

Day 18 Thankful and Grateful to participate in the #onethousandgifts bible study 🙏

Eucharisteo is the Biblical Greek word that literally means to give thanks… what I believe Jesus did each and every day regardless of His circumstances. ~ Ann Voskamp

Father, I thank You that You have heard me. — John 11:41

Give thanks to the Lord for He is good. His love endures forever… — Psalm 136:1-2

Living with losses, I may choose to still say yes to what He freely gives. ~ Ann

Eucharisteo means grace, thanksgiving, joy. It’s gratitude in action. Put to words. Put to motion.

It’s a turning. A widening. It’s easier to breathe.

Begin to wake to the wonder of the small… Begin to find joy in what really matters… in Who really matters. ~ Ann

Deep joy is only really found at the table of thanksgiving. ~ Ann

It’s both the invitation from and the door to Jesus. Thank You, Lord.

Eucharisteo.