My Awakening…..

Well folks, after 307 days, I’m emerging from my Fog. It took some time, but I’m beginning to see things through different, clearer eyes. A few ah-ha moments, a whole lotta tears have helped me break-through some of my self-imposed barriers that I didn’t even really know were there……….this song popped up this morning and then these words just spilled out….

 

My Awakening….

 

He called me out on it…

He helped me to see.

Though I wasn’t living in the past

The present was lost to me….

 

I was holding on to ‘our’ dreams

Afraid to let go

Afraid if I did that

I’d have no where to go….

 

But that wasn’t the truth

Cause by letting go

I was giving myself permission

To move forward on my own…

 

My happiness I was attaching

To his memory

Unfair on all accounts

But mostly unfair to me..

 

I am responsible for my happiness

I am responsible for my life..

Letting go and moving on

Is also my right…

 

Doesn’t mean our love is gone

Not a chance in hell of that

But he is there and I am here

And that is just a fact….

 

I’m coming out of the Fog

Seeing a new path..

Many forks and detours

But Im drawing up my map…

 

Clarity is an amazing thing

With open eyes and heart

My Spirit is Awakening

I’m ready to start……

I’M READY TO FLY

@lindafedroff_august2017

Jim will always be with me…his guidance I’ll always look for. But, I am wholly responsible for my happiness. I’ve been telling myself that happiness is unattainable to me, that I may never be happy again…how unfair that is to myself….how unfair to Jims memory. As I move forward, living my now according to Linda and not Linda & Jim, I will look within, I will make peace and I will live.

Special thanks to Lady Calen for Always being there since this journey started, hell before it started…you’ve held my hand so to speak…you listened and still you don’t think I’m crazy!!! 😄

T….you’ve known me a long time. Thank you for not treating me with kid gloves…and for that bit of tough love. I know you loved making me speechless!! 😄

Morning Sunrise Blessings w/ John O’Donohue

My first sunrise of 2016….throw in a short, cold, Soul Stroll and my day is off to a great start. ☀️

MATINS
I.
Somewhere, out at the edges, the night

Is turning and the waves of darkness

Begin to brighten the shore of dawn.
The heavy dark falls back to earth

And the freed air goes wild with light,

The heart fills with fresh, bright breath

And thoughts stir to give birth to colour.
II.
I arise today
In the name of Silence

Womb of the Word,

In the name of Stillness

Home of Belonging,

In the name of the Solitude

Of the Soul and the Earth.
I arise today
Blessed by all things,

Wings of breath,

Delight of eyes,

Wonder of whisper,

Intimacy of touch,

Eternity of soul,

Urgency of thought,

Miracle of health,

Embrace of God.
May I live this day
Compassionate of heart,

Gentle in word,

Gracious in awareness,

Courageous in thought,

Generous in love.

Soulful Saturday….☀️

“Your soul knows the geography of your destiny. Your soul alone has the map of your future, therefore you can trust this indirect, oblique side of yourself. If you do, it will take you where you need to go, but more important it will teach you a kindness of rhythm in your journey.” ~John O’Donohue, Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom~ 

 

While drinking my coffee and perusing WP, I came across not one, but two references to Mr. O ‘Donohue in a matter of minutes. (I happen to be a huge fan of his). Through my dear friend Calen over at Impromptu Promptlings, I was led to Karl, over at  Mindfulbalance…..and then, over on FB…I was reminded in my ‘On This Day’, 2 years ago, I posted the above John O’Donohue as my FB Status………..needless to say, I don’t  believe in coincidences…………..

So, I’m jumping on the John O’Donohue bandwagon this morning…one can never get enough!!!

Morning Offering

I bless the night that nourished my heart

To set the ghosts of longing free

Into the flow and figure of dream

That went to harvest from the dark

Bread for the hunger no on sees.

 

All that is eternal in me

Welcomes the wonder of this day,

The field of brightness it creates

Offering time for each thing

To arise and illuminate.

 

I place on the altar of dawn:

The quiet loyalty of breath,

The tent of thought where I shelter,

Waves of desire I am shore to

And all beauty drawn to the eye.

 

May My mind come alive today

to the invisible geography

That invites me to new frontiers,

To break the dead shell of yesterdays,

To risk being disturbed and changed.

 

May I have the courage today

To live the life that I would love,

To postpone my dream no longer

But do at last what I came her for

And waste my heart on fear no more.

Soulful Sunday…John ÓDonohue Style……☀️

Most mornings I am up before the sun, and this morning was no different…

“May the nourishment of the earth be yours, may the clarity of light be yours, may the fluency of the ocean be yours,”  ~John O’Donohue~


It’s a quiet, beautiful start to the day…….but it was calling for something…that something turned out to be…………..Anam Cara


“Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never go back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the lowlands of complacency and partial fulfillment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfillment.”  ~John O’Donohue, Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom~

Sunrise….a good cup of coffee…some Celtic music and a big dose of John ÓDonohue. My Sunday is set. Quietude is my prescription for today….

“All through your life your soul takes care of you…your soul is alive and awakened, gathering, sheltering and guiding your ways and days in the world. In effect, your soul is your secret shelter. ♥”  ~John O’Donohue, Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom~

May The Light Of Your Soul Guide You

May the light of your soul guide you.

May the light of your soul bless the work

You do with the secret love and warmth of your heart.

May you see in what you do the beauty of your own soul.

May the sacredness of your work bring healing, light and renewal to those

Who work with you and to those who see and receive your work.

May your work never weary you.

May it release within you wellsprings of refreshment, inspiration and excitement.

May you be present in what you do.

May you never become lost in the bland absences.

May the day never burden you.

May dawn find you awake and alert, approaching your new day with dreams,

Possibilities and promises.

May evening find you gracious and fulfilled.

May you go into the night blessed, sheltered and protected.

May your soul calm, console and renew you.

~John ÓDonohue~


Sunday Blessings……

“What is a blessing? It is a circle of light drawn around a person to protect, heal, and strengthen.” …. It is a gracious invocation where the human heart pleads with the divine heart…..

 


“When a blessing is invoked, a window opens in eternal time.” ~John ÓDonohue~
Woke way before the sun this morning and so glad I did. Did my yoga, made coffee and got to enjoy the view of the man in the moon from my front porch along with the gorgeous symphony of crickets….

How Blessed I am to start my day not only with the smiling face of the moon, but also with the warming rays of the sun…..

…..and a pony thrown in for good measure



….when the pain gets to be to much…when I find myself wallowing……I know it’s time to start counting my Blessings. I don’t keep a specific gratitude journal as I do practice gratitude on a daily basis…..but even then, I still have those moments when I need a little reminder………


“For Equilibrium, a Blessing:
Like the joy of the sea coming home to shore,

May the relief of laughter rinse through your soul.


As the wind loves to call things to dance,

May your gravity by lightened by grace.


Like the dignity of moonlight restoring the earth,

May your thoughts incline with reverence and respect.


As water takes whatever shape it is in,

So free may you be about who you become.


As silence smiles on the other side of what’s said,

May your sense of irony bring perspective.


As time remains free of all that it frames,

May your mind stay clear of all it names.


May your prayer of listening deepen enough

to hear in the depths the laughter of god.” 

~John O’Donohue, To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings~