30 Days Of Gratitude…Day 11

Today we remember all who served..all who gave and continues to give so we can live a life of freedom.

Day 11: Thankful and Grateful…

to all our service women and men, past, present and future as well as their families. ✝️❤️🙏🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

“Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends” ( John 15:13)

As believers we owe our veterans a deep debt. It is because of their sacrifice we are free to worship God. You and I go to church, worship, have Bibles, and serve God without fear of being put into prison or put to death. It is in large part due to their sacrifice we have these freedoms.

So thank a veteran today and pray for them because they are one of the biggest reasons we are free to worship as we please.

O God, we give you praise for these people who have allowed us to serve and worship You in freedom. We do not take for granted that there are millions of Christians around the world afraid of prison or even death because of what they believe. Our veterans are a significant reason why we do not fear and we thank You for them. Amen.


Happy Birthday ❤️🎊

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Today is my Jim’s birthday. He would have been 68…instead he is forever 65.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUSBAND ❤️

I Miss you Husband

My Beloved Best Friend..

Your smile, your laugh

Your love that transcends…

Today is your birthday

And we are apart..

I draw strength from our love though

And when the tears start…..

I’ll cry my river..

While deep within my soul..

I feel you with me

And for a little while, 

I’ll pretend, I am whole.

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Love. You. Husband ❤️

Take A Seat..Sit Back..And Listen…I’ve Got Something To Say…

Welcome back to The Sandbox Writing Challenge-Exercise 16. Now that we’ve gotten our warm-up exercises out of the way, it’s time to “dig in” a little deeper and see what we can “unearth” in Part 2.

I am deliberately leaving out the other reviews and warming up exercises as I don’t feel they were of much help when we did them before. But I am going to add a little something in. Fimnora has suggested that anyone who would like could “donate” a prompt of their own for the rest of us to answer. I think that’s a very INTERESTING idea. So if ANY OF YOU have a prompt you’d like to see us work with, please drop me a note and we’ll work them in!

In the meantime, I’ve seen this exercise used before in grief therapy. His nibs used it when he was in counseling after the death of my parents. It usually involves a person who has passed on. Interestingly, Roberta Allen doesn’t put any qualifiers on who this person should be — gone or here. Must admit I’m puzzled. Fimnora swore I would know who to write about when I sat down to do it last time!!! I don’t remember who iit was! So here we go…

I actually do remember who I wrote about my first go round in the Sandbox, my Aunt Barbara. Obviously, this go round, it will be My Jim sitting in the chair…all comfy, puffing away on his pipe, giving me his full attention………thankfully, we communicated and shared our feelings, so we both knew we were loved and adored by each other. So what is it I would say to him, that I NEVER SAID before……………

 

 

Well Babe, here’s the deal…..Life Without You Sucks. Period.

 We spoke of our mortality/immortality often..believing we would have more time…but the reality is, if you are a part of a couple, one of you is going to die first, and though I/we always knew that, your sudden departure knocked my world off its axis.

I NEVER would have believed That as of today, I have survived 80 weeks without you…that’s 560 days Jim!!! I always said I wanted to go first, that the thought of living without you was something I couldn’t do……Yet, from the moment I heard you were gone, (which by the way I already knew), those thoughts of mixing a cocktail and doing myself in never entered my mind, not at first. Yes, I did eventually think about it, fleeting as they were. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, if I Ever did that and succeeded, instead of greeting me happily, you’d kicked my ass from one end of the galaxy to the other…..that is not the way I want our reunion to be.

 

So, here I am, 80 weeks into this journey Babe. I’ve been on my own emotional rollercoaster, and you know how much I dislike that ride….but not only have I held on, I’ve conquered that sucker! I have no idea where this journey is going to take me, but because of you, your love and your constant encouragement and belief in me, I’m gonna make it. I know you’re proud of me. I also know you may not recognize this Linda I’m becoming, but I know you approve.

 

So….while life here still sucks without you…I’m going to continue to live this life you’ve gifted me with and Live It Out Freakin’ Loud!!!!!

 

Now, I’d like to read aloud, something I wrote for you……

 

I MISS…

YOUR BEAUTIFUL HEART

I MISS…

YOUR SMILE

I MISS…

YOUR DEEP FROM THE BELLY LAUGH

I MISS…

YOU HUSBAND…..

 

ALL THE WHILE….

 

I TRY TO MOVE FORWARD

AND LIVE EVERYDAY

IN A WAY THAT MAKES YOU PROUD

I CAN ALMOST HEAR YOU SAY…

 

“YOU’VE GOT THIS LINDA BABE

I BELIEVE IN YOU

GET YOUR ASS OUT THERE

THERE ARE THINGS FOR YOU TO DO

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So Husband, what do you think of that???

 

I. LOVE. YOU.

ALWAYS AND FOREVER

A Widow’s Birthday

Today is my 55th Birthday. My second without Jim. I’ll be spending part of my day with my daughter and her family. Tonight, I’ll celebrate my own way. A widow’s way. I’ll read over the Happy Birthday Notes Jim left me over the years…seeing his handwriting and reading his words, I can still feel his unending love.

There will be no more letters, no more notes

written by his hand.

No more love letters or drawn hearts

being left for me by my man.

Instead, I ceremoniously

reread his every word.

Crying my tears

While my memory serves….

…it serves as a reminder

of the love we share.

It’s not death do us part

’cause I still feel him near.

For now it’s in dreams

and the signs that he leaves me

In my memories and my heart

Our love will sustain me.

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Celebrating Him ..Happy Birthday in Heaven Babe ❤

Today would have been my Jims 67th Birthday. Today also marks 495 days since he gained his wings…..I’m choosing to celebrate my man ❤🥂

Happy Birthday in Heaven….

I Miss you Husband

My Beloved Best Friend..

Your smile, your laugh

Your love that transcends…

Today is your birthday

And we are apart..

I draw strength from our love though

And when the tears start…..

I’ll cry my river..

While deep within my soul..

I feel you with me

And for a little while,

I’ll pretend, I am whole.

©lindafedroff_february21

Our life together

Has been made up of moments.

In those early moments

I, You, Me

Quickly turned into an Us.

We Are One.

Together, we have built

A foundation of Love.

A Love strong enough

To hold us together

Through Eternity.

You are my Sanctuary.

My Foundation.

My Support.

My Soul.

You Are the Peanut Butter

To My Jelly………..on Squishy Wonder Bread

©Linda Fedroff

I. Miss. You. Husband.

I Choose to Celebrate You instead of Grieve.

I Feel You With Me….ALWAYS

#awidowslife