Seasons Change…Your Love Remains

My time on the island is drawing to a close, and while I’ve sat with friends and reminisced, soul strolled the beach and remembered the wonderful life Jim and I shared, I’m looking forward to getting home. Yes, the grief still visits, but it has softened. I’m leaving here in peace. It’s a peace that has come with time, but it has also come with growth. God’s Love has grown me in ways I can’t even explain over the last year, which has made this visit all the more transforming.

“ There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance…”
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

(The natural rhythm of the seasons applies to our lives and knowing there is a natural rhythm, a “time to weep and a time to laugh,” gives us permission to let go of perfectionist expectations of our lives. It lightens our burdens by giving us hope for the future in the midst of trial and prepares us for times of struggle – until the day comes when there will be no more winter and no more tears. ~Sarah Phillips)

We can’t have just one season, one life of endless summers….on this chilly, windy, autumn October day, 4 years and 3 days since Jim died, I’m accepting and embracing my season and I’m going home.

Merciful God, We praise you because you know all things, see all things, and remember us. Thank you that we can depend on your presence with us in every season and situation, that each time has purpose and meaning. We are grateful that each season is orchestrated by you, even the harder ones. Help us to see your hand and guidance in our lives as we go through changes, the highs, and the lows. May we grow in trust and persevere in the valleys. How great you are, oh God, for being so intentional to care for us in every season. For even when things seem glum, your light continues to shine on us in mercy and grace.Amen.

❤️

Road Trip 🚙

Roadtripped it back ‘home’ to Chincoteague today. The days are ticking down to Jim’s fourth Angelversary, and there’s no place I’d rather be then here, with my memories. Memories can and do fade, but the ones I hold dear to my heart, I don’t ever see them fading. So, it’s a beer on the front porch of my friends island cottage, the sound of the gulls as the rain trickles down. I’m grateful and blessed to be back.

3 hour pit stop..great dismal swamp.
Crossing the Chesapeake
First tunnel
Crossing the causeway to Chincoteague
Front porchin’ it 🍺

40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 16

DAY 16 — Tuesday, January 21, 2020

Amazon Prime. Target. Social Media. Starbucks… What is the Lord teaching you about Himself today?

I’ve been thinking about Amazon Prime myself… how I can place and order and two days later (BAM) it shows up on my front door. BUT WITH JESUS… with Jesus we’re told that He’s already on the front door knocking. He’s already there, eager to be let into the deep empty places.

I want to be filled to overflowing, how about you?

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“A full cart never makes a heart full.”

“run to the Comforter, He will fill you with His comfort.”

My life changed drastically the day my husband died unexpectedly of a heart attack. 3 weeks after his death found me packed up with few belongings and moving in with my son and his family. Things eventually settled down and I was able to find my own place to live…I get by on a fixed income..the thing I discovered was how much stuff I can truly live without……though admittedly, I have used retail therapy to help me get through some of those tough days when grief comes knocking at my door. Instead of letting it in and addressing it and turning to God, I’ve opened up Amazon, or taken a walk through Kohl’s for my sneaker fix. I know I need to turn … no actually I do need to run to God and His Word, and remember I am full, with the Holy Spirit:

But being full of the Holy Spirit, he gazed intently into heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God; Acts 7:55

Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. Romans 8:26

40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 13

DAY 13 — Saturday, January 18, 2020

If one verse could sum up the way we are crowding out sugar, it’s this one here: “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” (Matthew 6:33)

When we fix our eyes on Christ (and His righteousness) it’s miserably hard to fixate on foods.

Please take a moment to give me a big, juicy update. What is the Lord teaching you these days as you fast and pray? How has the Lord encouraged you? Share it below so that you might encourage others!

40 Day Sugar Fast

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Wow! This Chapter was just WOW. I’ve pretty much dieted on and off it seems like my whole life. I’ve been extremely heavy and I’ve been thin and everywhere in-between. When I hit the thin stage my thought was nothing feels better then skinny feels. I was treated differently thin..people made it a point to acknowledge me….when I was heavy, they did not. Thing was, even at my thinnest, I wasn’t fully happy or content. There was always something missing……………my journey has taken me up and down and all around, and because He is a loving and patient Father, He never gave up on me.

1 Samuel 16:7 really speaks to me…”The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”

While I’m making progress in spending more time in Gods Word and prayer instead of reaching for the chocolate, wine and ice cream, I have to admit I’m still reaching for something to help me get through the nights. I’m making better choices in what I’m reaching for, but I’m still reaching.

Dear God I come to you for strength—strength of body, strength of mind and strength of soul. I feel the infilling of your Spirit. I feel the assurance of your upholding presence. Thank you, God, for strength.