My Falling Leaves 🍂🍂🍂

Summer is starting to make its exit for autumn’s arrival. The morning sun has and continues to shift. There is a crispness in the air. The days are brighter and I’m beginning to ‘see’ things with new clarity. The trees are beginning to let go of their slowly decaying leaves. I sit and watch as the leaves, faded green, yellow and brown, twist and fall, and dance gently across the yard on the breeze. Their time is drawing to a close.

Autumn is my favorite season. It’s a wonderful time to witness nature in all its magical, colorful glory. There are lessons to be learned in this new season. The trees are not holding on to those dead leaves that no longer have a purpose, instead they are being dispelled, to fall back to earth and eventually decay back into the soil whence they grew. A good reminder to me that I shouldn’t be holding on to the the dead weight of all that is holding me down. Covid knocked me to my knees. The isolation and loneliness unbearable. Yet, I’ve been pretty good at fooling myself and others that I’ve had a handle on things, that I was ok, until I wasn’t ok.

One cannot flourish in a new season carrying the dead weight of the past. For me, it’s grief, pain and despair. It’s loneliness and hopelessness. It’s bitterness and it’s fear. Throw in guilt and I’ve got myself a pretty heavy chain there. And truth is, I can’t do this alone………..

So, in this new season, I’m working on letting go and really turning to God for His strength and guidance. I’m studying Philippians at the moment, and this verse is one of my go to’s.

Philippians 4:6-7

Old habits are hard to break. One of those habits is thinking I can handle things on my own. I know I can’t, yet I try anyway. As a new Christian, I tend to get sidetracked by self, forgetting God is right there, just waiting to hear from me. In this new season, I plan on continually praying and asking Him to shine His light on my thoughts, on my life and journey as I work towards letting go of my ‘decaying leaves’ and these weights that bind me.

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173 weeks since you’ve been gone 😞 love and miss you husband ❤️

As long as I live

As long as I breathe the air

He lives on in me

Attaining stillness

One cannot help but be moved

By our beating hearts

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40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 17

DAY 17 — Wednesday, January 22, 2020

Don’t shoot off your mouth or speak before you think. Don’t be too quick to tell God what you think he wants to hear. God‘s in charge not you – the less you speak, the better. Ecclesiastes 5:2

“Hearing God’s voice has become the singular quest of my heart, the sole pursuit that alone satisfies the great longings of my heart. I strongly advocate for a prayer life that is comprised mostly of silence. It’s a great delight to talk to God, but it’s even more thrilling when He talks to us. I’ve discovered that He has more important things to say than I do. Things don’t change when I talk to God; things change when God talks to me. When I talk, nothing happens; when God talks, the universe comes into existence.” Bob Sorge, Secrets of the Secret Place

Is hearing from the Lord the singular quest of your heart? I’m not there yet, if I’m honest. I have the tendency to read a verse or two and then tell God (and others) all about it. However, I want to learn to be a better listener. I want to learn to sit for a long time with the Lord in His quiet and calming Presence, and let Him transform (not only my figure, but) my life.

What was your main take away from today’s reading?

40 Day Sugar Fast

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“Things don’t change when I talk to God; things change when God talks to me. When I talk, nothing happens; when God talks, the universe comes into existence.”

I live alone now. So I have plenty of alone and quiet time on my hands. I do make it a point, almost daily, to spend quiet time, or as I like to call it, time to ‘just be’. Is it always with God, no. Is it always quiet, no. I have a mediation app I like to use to help empty my head of all the stuff clogging it. My go to in the afternoon is a calming guided prayer meditation that really helps put me in a calm quiet state. Afterwards, I try, (emphasis on try), to hold on to that quiet feeling of calm for a bit longer, ‘listening’ for what God has to say.

Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.

Jeremiah 33:3

What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you. Philippians 4:9