12 Nights Of Solstice..Night 4

 

A time of traveling into the deep places of remembering. This is a time of connecting
with your inner knowledge. This is a time of moving into the realms beneath the surface, visiting the caverns of the ancestors. Gifting and honoring energies will guide you as you move through the depths and into the night sky. Finding the support that guides you along your way to celebrating the deep darkness and the return of the sun…the Winter Solstice.

 

 

As I continue my 12 Nights Of Solstice Journey I allowed my mind to wander……as seems to be the case with me and my journey, words begin to emerge, spiral and form…

 

This key

Reveled itself to me.

A gift.

And now with key in hand,

My journey continues….

As I wander, 

I wonder,

What is this a key to.

What secrets await me as I 

Continue on.

I Am The Holder Of The Key

I am a Seeker of The Lock………….and this stone,

it’s shape significant.

I await its message. 

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Key….and Stone 

 

Then, with my key and stone in hand, I emerged into the dark night…

 

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I Breathe..I Listen…I Remember 

 

Back On Chincoteague

My Journey continues and my life continues to evolve as Jim’s 2nd Angelversay grows closer. In the meantime, today marks week 103 since he died…and it finds me back ‘home’ on Chincoteague. I actually arrived on Wednesday…..it was a beautiful day for a ride.

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Driving over and under the Bay Bridge Tunnel 

 

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So many external changes here…the house we lived in recently sold….from what I can see internal and external changes are being done. It does my heart good to see the house being taken care of and used once again to make memories….I can sit here next door where I’m staying, look over and smile knowing Jim and I lived an incredibly Blessed life there.

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But the biggest changes are the ones within me…………I’m here to reminice and to celebrate my man and our life here….knowing full well that I have a new life and friends back in NC……….but oh how I miss these sunrises ☀️

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Peace From The Beach ✌️

 

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“You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment.” ~henry david thoreau~

#mytruth

Today My Heart Hurts 💔

Today is 20 months…608 says….since I last saw him

Time has not stopped. The sun still rises, and I greet each new sunrise with a grateful heart. The sun still sets, and with the setting of the sun, I end my day with a grateful heart. My inbetween, well each day is different. More good days, some just ok days. The bad days, still have them….and when I do, I allow myself to feel that grief and pain and sadness………..

Today my heart hurts. I miss him. Always I Miss Him. But, I’m so grateful for these memories and the opportunity to share them..which I will do till I draw my last breath..even though there are those folks out there who think we shouldn’t, as long as I’m breathing I will talk and share my memories of my Jim……

Life is different

Without you here.

Yet,

Although I can’t see you

I feel you are near….

The pain of losing you

Is one I can’t bare.

Yet,

I choose to celebrate us

And the love that we share.

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(Thank you FB for the reminders…a morning we spent together (3 years ago today) at ‘our’ beach’ )

On This Day…….

On This Day…15 years ago, I went to lunch and spent the day with a really nice guy. 15 years ago, my life was forever changed. 15 years ago, I (re)connected with my other half…..it took us years to find each other, but find each other we did. We made each other whole, again. Though I know and feel he is with me always, we are once again separated by time and space….
What helps me to go on is my belief that we will be reconnected and whole again…….

Today I’ll remember. Today I will cry. Today I will laugh. That’s what my memories do.
I Love You Husband ❤



Wrinkles Of The Heart ❤

Good afternoon Everyone ☀💛

“Do not hide the wrinkles of your heart. Don’t try and iron them out or smooth them over. They are your life. Your wrinkles of life are special and unique. In these lines live your joys, your heartaches, your pain and your laughter. You don’t need to get rid of them. Instead, let them breathe and grow, for it is in these wrinkles that the most beautiful parts of you can be found.” ~JB~ 

Photo Credit: Pinterest


I posted this on my FB 2 years ago…it never ceases to amaze me that things I posted long ago, still find ways to speak to me now. Back then, I was in the midst of healing from my past,,I was putting my broken pieces back together…..and I did. Sure the pieces don’t quite fit perfectly, but that’s to allow my light to shine ☀


And y’all know what Jimmy Buffet says, “wrinkles only go where the smiles have been.” 

Jim made my heart not only smile…but sing!  

I hope the sun shines down on you today and you find a small reason to smile 💛☀