This was my backyard view this morning. An incredibly beautiful start this new day courtesy of God 💛☀️
“In the morning, LORD, You hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before You and wait expectantly.” ~Psalm 5:3~
Father, thank you for intervening in my life and allowing me to have a personal relationship with you. Thank you for your love for me today and forever. Thank you for the blessings you’ve given me and my family. Help us use those blessings to bless others. May I live a life of true joy as I see you at work around me today! In Jesus’ name. Amen. -~Ron Moore~
What jumped out at me was “what you live to fill, Christ died to fill!”
I’m good during the day. Making healthy meal choices and spending time in God’s Word, Bible Study, Prayer Journaling as well as quiet time to Just Be with God……But as I said yesterday, though I replaced the not good stuff I was reaching for while I Netflixed and Facebooked in the evening with healthier options…..that’s not exactly what this fast is all about now is it?! 🤦🏻♀️ I’ve still got some major work to do.
“GOD Has the power to turn our hollow places into a hallowed place.”￼
There is no doubt that my main trigger(s) were/are feelings…loneliness, grief (sadness) mindless boredom. My husbands unexpected death in ‘16 found me at the age of 53 alone for the first time in my entire life. That first year, I lived on coffee …. grapes (aka wine)…the good ole cacao bean (aka dark chocolate in any form) and ice cream, with the occasional salad thrown in for good measure. 3 + years later, I still struggle. I struggle with cooking for one, wondering what’s the sense in it. It’s easier to pour a glass of wine ( I always cut mine with club soda to make it a bit more justifiable to myself 🤦🏻♀️) and snack on said chocolate or cheese and crackers or pretzels or whatever. It’s the nights though, when I’m settled in…whatever show I may be watching on Netflix, I need to have my hand busy feeding myself…..cue the big bowls of ice cream…or just a jar of peanut butter and a spoon.
Knowing all this and making the changes needed is slowly happening. I know I have to eat. I can’t fast in the sense that I not eat, that’s just not an option. What I’m learning here is that I can make better choices for myself and know that when I feel the urge to reach for something I don’t need, I can turn to my Bible, I can turn to my prayer journal, I can turn to silent communion with God, and feast.
“And when you fast, do not look gloomy like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be seen by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward.But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face,that your fasting may not be seen by others but by your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you. ( Matthew 6:16-18)
This chapter is one of my favorites because God is my favorite. His nearness is my favorite. And as I fast (emptying myself of false fillers) He goes nearer, deeper, making Himself more intimately available to my hungry-heart than ever before.
What did you learn today about fasting, praying, and giving?