The 40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 1

“Turning to the Most High instead of the next sugar high.”

Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in him.Fear the LORD, you his holy people, for those who fear him lack nothing.The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing. (Psalm 34:8-10)

New Year, New Decade, New Start. I’ve always started off the new year stating I held the pencil to start writing my new chapters. I’ve come to realize though I may hold the pencil, it’s God who really guides my hand. It’s with this new realization that I embark on this new journey, in the hopes that as I rid myself of toxins and unhealthy habits and things, and instead turn to God, I will free myself from choosing stuff as a means to healing.

This mornings group question was/is: DAY 1 — Monday, January 6th, 2020

Today is day 1 of the 40-day sugar fast!

Did today’s short chapter make you think of your own sweet childhood? When did you learn to love sugar so much? Is it possible that your age-old love for a sweet sugar high has held you back from the Most High?

What’s your story?

My story…

It was never just sugar, but food in general that I’ve had a love/hate relationship my entire life. As a victim of child abuse,my childhood memories are not happy ones and they are very scattered. My first real memories of how food made me feel came in my teen years. As my love for food and drink grew, my weight became an issue. 3 pregnancies and an I don’t care attitude had me topped off at 201 pounds. I’ve spent the better part of 40 years with that said love/hate relationship not only with food, but with my scale and more importantly, myself.

My husbands unexpected death almost 39 months ago now, turned my world around. We were foodies, we loved to eat…to a fault. His death finds me living by myself for the first time in my life. And while I’ve acclimated to life as a widow/single for the most part, the one place I struggle with is eating. I can’t tell you how many times I tell myself I need to eat right and take better care of myself. Yet I find myself doing the same thing…a pot of coffee with my favorite creamer to start my day…then I’ll eat a salad and tell myself good job, only to pour a glass of wine later with a bowl of pretzels and then later on a big bowl of ice cream. That’s become a pretty consistent routine for me, my excuse being I don’t see the point if cooking for one person 😞

I’m a newly baptized Christian, and when this book and journey presented itself to me, I believe it’s an answered prayer that I’ve neglected to really pray for myself. As we enter 2020, I’m ready for transformation in all areas of my life.


My Life Transformation

So many changes have occurred in my life since Jim’s death 35 months ago. Even prior to his death, I was on a journey, a pilgrimage, searching….searching for answers to my questions “who am I?” And “what is my purpose?” Those answers evaded me. Snippets of answers would appear, but instead of heeding them, I’d turn and go in another direction, not ready to hear what I needed to. That all changed last October, when I went to church with my daughter and her family. As I stated in my testimony, I walked into church that day, a sinner, dead. What I heard that morning changed my life. I heard the truth. I heard the Gospel. I walked out of church that day feeling more alive and full then ever before. It’s been an amazing journey since then…

My questions are being answered as I continue this new journey of mine. Today I’m ready to share some of that here.

We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life. ~Romans 6:4~

Baptism, is a photo of the old, sinful nature‘s death and the new faith life God gives those who trust in Him. Belief in Jesus has a life-altering impact (I can attest to that!) One moment a sinful person is dead, held in sin’s grasp. The next she becomes an entirely new person, alive in her Savior (Yessssss!). Only Jesus offers this glorious freedom., and He gave it to me!

(Excerpt from Everyday Encouragement..Spiritual Refreshment For Women

Out with the old…in with the new ✝️




Art Therapy 💚


For me, accepting ‘what is’ at this moment in my Now, was (is) when my True Growth began. Coming from a place of Gratitude, I am Grateful for how far I have come in my journey, for the Gifts and Blessings in my life, for my Memories. With a Grateful Heart, I continue to grow from a place deep within, where my deeply cultivated roots can continue to flourish and blossom into something more.

Trust had to occur in order for Transformation to happen. While consciously disentangling myself from my pre-conceived ideas of what my life is (was) supposed to look like, I put my Trust and opened my Heart to my Creator, and continue to do so, Trusting Him and my journey.

For me, Acceptance has brought its own form of Contentment. With a Grateful Heart, I will continue to ‘turn over’ tend’ and ‘fertilize’ the Garden of My Soul, with Love in my Heart…………

a new haircut and color thrown in for good measure keeps my transformation fresh 😊 (I’m channeling my inner JOY, from the Pixar movie Inside Out 😆) 



Joy courtesy of doublemesh




Signs Of Change

Well, after an absolutely dreary cold damp and rainy Saturday…the sun, slighter milder temps, and wind made an appearance today. Took a Soul Stroll down to the lake..nice to see water….

Sat on my rock…have to admit the tears have been springing up more frequently lately. Lady Calen may be on to something…I’m 9 days away from leaving here to start the next leg of my journey…..I’m ready to fly, but it’s very bittersweet…….Speaking of Dragonfly wings…..obviously it’s way to soon to see any Dragonflies hovering about…..BUT……………….I did catch a glimpse of a Dragonfly Nymph!

I’m taking this as a really Cool Sign……I’m ready for my Emergence…..the next cycle of this crazy journey that is my life. After almost 6 months of ‘gestation’ ..I’m ready for this….my transformation……it is bittersweet, but I know Jim is guiding me along.

After this encounter, I went over to the river to listen to natures music and left my own little sign…..

My Soul Strolls will continue

Though the paths I walk have changed…….

It’s Change and Transformation

That are waiting for me….

Leaving my ‘nymph’ stage behind me

My newly grown wings are prepared

To take me along on this next cycle that is my life.


This Little Light Of Mine Will Shine Shine Shine ☀️☀️☀️

Day 21. I’ve come to my end of the 21-Day Meditation Experience. It may be the end of this small little journey, but it’s really only the beginning. I’m grateful for the timing of this experience. This Shedding the Weight: Mind, Body and Soul Experience’s timing has coincided with my own weight loss journey…as well as the discovery of my voice while I’m shedding the weight of my past…..

I take away from this experience the knowledge that I Am Not my burdens. My transformation will continue as I re-connect with My True Self, and in so doing, my light shines brighter…..Dang if I’m not feeling so light I feel as though I’m walking on air!! ☺️

I accept and embrace each moment…….My hope is that as my own Light shines brighter, it touches others….and as I share these moments, I hope they touch you, and maybe even help you shed some of the weight you may be carrying…while igniting you own transformation!!! ☀️🙏

Day 21-Centering Thought

Day 21 – Bringing Light into the World

“Let your presence light new light in the hearts of others.” ― Mother Teresa

Today’s meditation teaches us that as life becomes lighter, you open a channel for the light to enter you. This is the light of awareness, freedom, truth, and love. The greatest influence you can possibly have is to radiate your own being from the level of the true self. It’s not out of duty that we let our light shine, but because it’s our joy to bring light into the world.


Jyoti Jyotova

The light of life extends everywhere.