2020 Home Photo Challenge 1-18-20

The last few years, its crazy saying years, but these last few years have brought about great change, growth and transformation in my life. I’ve been struggling with the direction I think my blog should go, so in a word, I’m lost.

I noticed over at Lillie-Put Joseph has started a photo challenge. This particular challenge is called The 2020 Home Photo Challenge. One photo, taken everyday, in or around your home. This is something I can get on board with! So here we go….

“That’s what winter is: an exercise in remembering how to still yourself then how to come pliantly back to life again.” ~Ali Smith~

two trees 🌳🌳

This beautiful poem popped up a few days ago. Knew I needed to share…and what better time then today. 120 weeks ago my Jim died…I hold on to our memories and I celebrate him. 

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Two Trees

A portion of your soul has been

entwined with mine

A gentle kind of togetherness, while

separately we stand.

As two trees deeply rooted in

separate plots of ground,

While their topmost branches

come together,

Forming a miracle of lace

against the heavens.”

~Janet Miles~

Images of women in transition

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Your soul entwined with mine 

My Absence Explained..Sorta. Dealing With Florence

It seems I’ve been neglecting my WP Blog and those I follow the last few weeks. Quite honestly, I’ve been feeling/dealing with a shift of sorts. I know the fact that I’m coming up on Jim’s 2 year Angelversary is a part of it. My emotional state of being is all over the place right now……..I’ve found ‘my tribe’ so to speak in a widow/widowers MeetUp group from Raleigh. Through the group I’m making friends who get it and fully understand the ups and downs of this journey…….the cool and exciting thing is I’m helping them as much and they’re helping me. I’m exploring the possibility of setting up a writing therapy session amongst us and our weekly coffee/lunch dates…these thoughts and ideas are still in their infancy, but I’m excited about them……

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Now, as some of you may know, I moved here to North Carolina 17 months ago. We’re in the midst of dealing with this storm named Florence…   

As a steady rain continues to fall here in my neck of the woods, my thoughts and prayers are with all my fellow Carolinians who have been seriously impacted by this storm.

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As of this moment, I am still spared any damage or inconvenience, and for that I am so very Grateful. Though I refused to openly admit going into this, my first real storm since Jim died, I was/am frightened. As the forecast for us changed(s), I decided to stay put and ride the storm out at home. My concern of course were and are my trees. Surrounded as I am by them, I continue to hope and pray that as the ground softens with all this rain, they will stay  grounded and rooted..they do of course pose a danger, yet the tree lover in me can’t help but hold on to her Faith that they will remain standing to watch over me…

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The rain still falls….tornado and flood watches continue to pop up……I walk my property, hope and pray for the best.

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My Answers Are Within

Another go-round of The Sandbox Writing Challenge is under way. This week’s prompt is…..

What message just for you

is hidden in this ancient writing?

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I’ve decided to read my message in the ancient ‘writings’ within the bark of my Old Wise One who watches over me.

What does he have to tell me?!?! A Lot it seems!!

My tree is telling me that though I am finally at a place that I am putting down some roots, I also have wings that need tending to as well.

My roots finally have fertile soil, a place to stretch out and grow deep. They’re giving me a place to rest. A place to Just Be.

All The While…….

My wings want to take me to far away places, physically And metaphorically. Physically, in a ‘perfect world’ I’d visit those place I’ve read about and visit in my dreams. And then I’d return home once more, to rest before the next great adventure. Unfortunately, in my Real World, it’s not really an option, though I am going to work on some sort of travel.

Metaphorically, it’s with my creativity that I want to fly. With my words, my art, music. I want to release it to the universe. I need to set myself free from the constraints of my own making and allow my creativity to flow.

I’m being reminded that every thought, every word, every choice I make is helping me to create the treasure that is my life. He reminds me that my life is an ever- changing journey, that nothing ever really stays the same……

And then He shared this….from some very wise unknown person….

“Life is sublime and devastating, but it doesn’t own you. It cannot break you. We come into and leave this world alone. If you know and accept and love you, that should be a comfort, not a terror. You always have a place in this universe. You always have you.

Life is art. Life is magic.”

And so are you.

Broken But Still Standing Tall 💚🌳

Summer Solstice was in full swing. Hot and steamy here in the south. With blinds drawn and my fan working on over-drive to keep me cool, I was seated at my desk, lost in thought and writing. When all of a sudden I heard something fall…..muffled by the closed windows and whir of the fan, it wasn’t loud at all. I got up to investigate…..imagine my surprise when I found this….

Not what I was expecting……

A huge sadness gripped my heart last night….this tree has been a huge part of my healing for 13 months….seeing him broken breaks my heart….my old one, my healer, my friend.

 

This morning, I was gifted this view …..

“In the blink of an eye, change occurs and wraps you in sadness. But, even within that change and sadness, there is beauty to behold.” ©lindafedroff_june22,2018

 

He stands tall and majestic Still 💚