My ‘View’

Things are not always as they appear to be on the surface…unfortunately, some people assume and see what they want to see, that’s not my problem.

Just about a month ago now, while attending a widows meeting at church, I was having a conversation with a friend, seeing her with both eyes one minute, and in the blink of an eye, it was as if someone pulled a veil over my right eye. One second I could see, the next all I saw was light and blur.

A hemorrhage….hopefully in time it would heal. In the meantime, adjusting to life with limited vision. Humbling. Scary. Unless I shared what I was experiencing, no one knew, no one could tell. I was my ‘normal’ self. In truth, I was not. I am not.

Unfortunately, my retina detached. I knew exactly when it happened. All the while I could still ‘see’ light, then I couldn’t. The veil got darker..black. I had eye surgery Wednesday. I have awesome drs who tell me all went well. Time will heal and I will see again. I pray anyway 🙏

There are experiences in our lives that forever change a person. 29 months ago Jim’s death did that to me. Losing vision, even for a month or two or three, has as well. My ‘perspective’ and my ‘view’ of my world literally and figuratively have changed. Where this journey is taking me remains to be ‘seen’, but I’m open and ready for it…..

“By removing useless, unnecessary and unwanted layers, you’ll open yourself up to find the clarity to ‘see’ what is important.” ~lindafedroff19~

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Eye Surgery

“In the valley of the blind, the one-eyed man is king.”
~August Wilson, Gem of the Ocean~

…or in my case, queen. The last three and a half weeks have proven to be a humbling time for me. What started out as a vitreous hemorrhage unfortunately turned into a detached retina. Wednesday found me at the hospital having eye surgery. No selfies to share, but I get to wear this till things clear up.

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I’m Blessed and Grateful. I’m told my surgery went well and that my vision should slowly return as the above mentioned gas bubble dissipates. In the meantime, this is kinda how I see things, and that’s actually ‘clearer’ then what I’m ‘seeing’.  I have to admit this experience and how I ‘see’ things has undoubtedly changed. I will continue my journey with a new perspective and purpose,  though what that purpose is, remains to be ‘seen’.

My view, my life, is once again, forever changed.

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Fog….A Haiku

Misty veil of fog

Murky Sunlight burning through

Clear, blurry my world 

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My backyard view this morning

Clear and blurry is my world these days. As I mentioned a few weeks ago , I’ve lost the vision in my right eye. That’s still the case. Looks like I’m dealing with a Vitreous Hemorrhage. Now my eyesight is far from perfect anyway, but let me say how humbling it is to find myself dealing with this. I’m hopeful that my vision, as imperfect as it may be, will be restored. In the meantime, while my view is distorted,  I can still see out of my left eye. 😉

3 Day Quote Challenge…Day 2

Just finished up Day 2 of my 5 day Say it, Sweat it, Get it Challenge and today’s mantra is……IT’S MY TIME. MY VISION IS CLEAR. So, I’m carrying that over to today’s quote challenge…….

(Photo via Pinterest)

“If you see the world and yourself through a lens smudged by negativity then you’ll find much misery. If you look outwards and inwards through lens brightened by positivity you’ll find much to be happy and appreciative about.” ~ Henrik Edberg~~~~~~~

 

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Don’t let your inability to see get in the way of your vision.” ~Jarod Kintz~


“Let no clouds block your sunshine. Instead of looking at the cloud blocking you, divert your attention to the silver lining that comes with it. We face mountains and clouds everyday, the trick is to see their beauty and not let them block our vision in any way.” ~Angie Karan~


The rules to this are simple:

Post a quote, three consecutive days.
You can pick one or three quotes per day.
Challenge three different bloggers per day…..or if your a rule breaker like me, don’t challenge anyone in particular…..if you care to, just join in!!!!