40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 12

DAY 12 — Friday, January 17, 2020

Have you been able to pin-point some of your gnarliest food triggers? I love how Asheritah Ciuciu says it in her book, Full.

“It’s useful for us to determine what our particular triggers are, and when faced with that trigger, we can make the intentional choice of whether to go to God or go to food.”

Share a bit about your most stubborn food triggers and what God is teaching you. I can’t wait to read what you’re learning!

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There is no doubt that my main trigger(s) were/are feelings…loneliness, grief (sadness) mindless boredom. My husbands unexpected death in ‘16 found me at the age of 53 alone for the first time in my entire life. That first year, I lived on coffee …. grapes (aka wine)…the good ole cacao bean (aka dark chocolate in any form) and ice cream, with the occasional salad thrown in for good measure. 3 + years later, I still struggle. I struggle with cooking for one, wondering what’s the sense in it. It’s easier to pour a glass of wine ( I always cut mine with club soda to make it a bit more justifiable to myself 🤦🏻‍♀️) and snack on said chocolate or cheese and crackers or pretzels or whatever. It’s the nights though, when I’m settled in…whatever show I may be watching on Netflix, I need to have my hand busy feeding myself…..cue the big bowls of ice cream…or just a jar of peanut butter and a spoon.

Knowing all this and making the changes needed is slowly happening. I know I have to eat. I can’t fast in the sense that I not eat, that’s just not an option. What I’m learning here is that I can make better choices for myself and know that when I feel the urge to reach for something I don’t need, I can turn to my Bible, I can turn to my prayer journal, I can turn to silent communion with God, and feast.

40 Day Sugar Fast…Day 10

DAY 10 — Wednesday, January 15, 2020

 “And when you fast, do not look gloomy like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be seen by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward. But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, that your fasting may not be seen by others but by your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you. ( Matthew 6:16-18)

This chapter is one of my favorites because God is my favorite. His nearness is my favorite. And as I fast (emptying myself of false fillers) He goes nearer, deeper, making Himself more intimately available to my hungry-heart than ever before.

What did you learn today about fasting, praying, and giving?

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Knowing He never gave up on me, knowing He wanted a relationship with me is so humbling. Making time with Him each day is a priority I need in my daily life.

This morning’s little read 🙏❤️

Happy New Years Eve 2019

The hands of time

Tick tocking the moments away.

Soon,

The final chapter

Of this book will be written,

The last period put in place.

And the book will be closed.

Reflection will follow.

There were stormy seas

That pounded and tried to break me.

There were times of peaceful calm,

When all seemed right.

What I have found

On this journey,

Is that my life

Is/was somewhere in the middle.

The rough seas help make me stronger.

The calm revitalizes.

In the middle, I find a cohesiveness

That makes my life’s journey

Explicitly my own.

The book is closed now.

A new one ready to be written.

While I hold the pencil ( I like to have the ability to erase)

God will guide my hand

and help me turn the page,

Let the journey continue.

©linda_december

Happy New Years Eve Folks!! This gal is under the weather, so I’ll be snuggling in with meds, tissues and Philip 😻

There’s gonna be a whole lot of reflection going on, a decades worth 😳 as I say bye bye 2019 and hello 2020. It boggles my mind to think that 2020 will be the fourth full year that Jim isn’t here. So much change, growth, transformation has occurred in my life. The me-myself and I, I am today, is unrecognizable of who I was at the end of 2016. I know he’s proud if me. I’m proud of me.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. (2 Corinthians 5:17)

30 Days Of Gratitude…Day 19

Day 19 I Am Enough….Embracing the me I was born to be. What a gift to know my real Father made me for His purpose, and His love for me is unconditional ❤️🙏

But now, O LORD, you are our Father;

we are the clay, and you are our potter;

we are all the work of your hand.” (Isaiah 64:8)

“Be who you were created to be, and you will set the world on fire.” ~Sister Catherine of Siena~

Thinking Of Him ❤️

 

32 months ago…..that’s 973.98 days since Jim’s been gone. Some days it feels like yesterday, others a lifetime. My life continues to move forward as I grow, transform and evolve. While I’m not the same person I was, one thing will never change, and that’s my Love for him. 

I. Love. You Husband

Life is different
Without you here.
Yet,
Although I can’t see you
I feel you are near….

The pain of losing you
Is one I can’t bare.
Yet,
I choose to celebrate us
And the love that we share.
©lindafedroff

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